If you come back..No way man!

I don't know why recently i've got hooked up by this song by Blue - ' If you come back'. Part of the lyric goes..

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
In my life
I'll be there till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Back into my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Back into my life)
Oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe
I didn't know
What to say
This time
I won't disguise
Then we can
Build our lives
Then we can
Be as one

I swear
If you come back
In my life
I'll be there till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Back into my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me)
Oh yes you are

Lovely lyrics but no,it's not what is residing in the inner me( i hope not) and it should not be. So much so of all the denials, i really am afraid there is a little part of me is singing those words. The conscious part of me wish to just cage that me and never let it out to resurface. i've had enough of the experience and wish no more to gain that back. i am completely fine just the way i am now. i dont want to lose myself for a second time. It is so tiring to live for others.I really appreciate that i am now able to see things around me so clear, so dear and so real. I can't tell no one to stop the image haunting , not only to myself. I keep blaming myself for being so silly, though it's pretty much not my fault wholly. It just came out of the blue. I guess i am a person that always am carrying a huge hammer and be hammering myself for mistakes done, though some,people sees it only as a minute wrongdoing,i'd blame myself hard. This is a bad habit, i know..it's been years that i've tried to drop it. i gave up, sigh! no big deal. i'd swtich back to NORMAL mode. No worries, i dont abuse myself physically. Did anyone question on mentally? I shall remain silent. la la..~under my umbrella, ella ,ella..~ (playing on my earphone;p)

Talking about went on today..
i was quite happy today that i managed to make a friend happy:) NOt that she was in a terribly down mood. It was just that she kept saying that she thinks herself is not really good at anything, not at this nor at that and such. I told her everyone is good at something. It's just that perhaps she doesnt realize it herself when others actually do. SO,so..go people,go discover yourself,your own potential! ;p My god, so AIESECy!
yeah i mean seriously, i do whine at myself too, at times when i get really frustrated of not being able to understand simple theories or purely logical stuff.i would need to tell that magical line to myself too, self-psychoing again. But then, i really do believe that everyone is born with intelligence. It's just the matter of how much is borned with and how it is being utiised. Those people who did crime,theyjust had too much of it and used in the wrong things. Anyway, i am glad that i made her realized that (i hope she really did). wow, i sounded so noble. Haha!
okay..i shouldn't linger here so long. I've 3 more papers to go. One week of break in between. All killer papers. i just had my liked yet hated Immuno. Was dumb-founded when i saw the ques. No points filtering. Just wrote everything i could remember and that was it! Phew, relieved! Back, back, back,study!
(but i still want to enjoy the songs :/)
Damn all these beautiful girl...la la la

-happy peach-

SHe's bored over her laziness and complaining about her tan

Laziness is crawling all over me. I think i have used up all my energy for my past two weeks' tests and haven't recovered from the exhaustion. I went home and chilled around with my brothers and went out with my girlfriends. tried looking at the notes but failed. The exam fever has yet to overwhelm me. it's just like you know you are nearing to danger and you still don't bother to do anything about it and later on you complain all over. See, human's nature. tsk tsk such a bad habit. Im talking about myself k.. don't be sensitive yeah.

Omg, i've got myself so tanned! The swimwear lines are so noticeable. How am i going to wear bare-back dress on this coming saturday? I started swimming recently as i've cut down on my cardio activities, for the goodness of my knees. Not a bad thing though. I never knew swimming is this relaxing. The mind empties when u're in the water. Howver, the cleanliness of the water quite a big deal to me. How gross is it when u meet a miserable strand of 1-inched hair floating towards your face when u were breaststroking? I've no idea where it was from and i dont wish to know. Hrm, am thinking if i should just get an even tan on my back so that i wont look odd in the dress. everyone commented on me looking tan :( ouch ouch ouch!

-tanned peach-

blissfuL momento

Breathing a sigh of relief *phew* i've finally finished sitting for all six tests today which had been going on for two weeks. Total madness. Never in my student life i'd been so stressful, i can say quite comparable to my STPM time, as hectic. Even now, i'd still think STPM was tough. It was a nightmare and i dont wish to go through that again. Those were just tests and they'd hit me hard. Final exams are just less than 3 weeks away. My god, i really gotta hit the right button this time or else i wont be able to save the grades. it isn a good thing when u realized you've started to doubt your own intelligence. I feel sorry for myself for having the slightest thought to give up. i'd have to constantly remind myself that there's a reason me being in UM, though realistically it's not a big deal nowadays for getting in uni. Yet, to a certain extent, there's a qualification to be met upon the entry, right right? I just hope the motivation level doesnt decline further, otherwise..

Damn all these beautiful girls, they only wanna do you dirt, they'll you SUICIDAL,SUICIDAL.. lalaala..
Random ;p but it keeps playing in my head lately. Prefer Jojo's lyric better
lalaala.. off for manicure and mask now:) bliss..

-peach-

GABA? or glutamate?

Not enough?! So much so for that 20% and yet it turned out like crap. 24/7 been sitting there with backaches and gym-skipping..? Disappointing betuL.. I really need to stimulate my brain cells before the finals. Long term memory, need GABA ( am i right?! or glutamate..?) still cant get over the test i had this morning. confused with the facts.. Damn smart. spot question. those skipped ones came out. stupefied...

From dislike to like but yet, it's not enough

It just subconsciously grew. I didn't know that i started to like. I disliked so much when i was first introduced at it but now i realize they are pretty interesting and amusing. Am talking about Immunology, a course that I'm taking this semester. Seriously, the things to study here are so relevant to us, especially to me- allergy & immunity, so yah, i find it good to learn. However, however, i just had another test for it today and i couldn't do well! This was so frustrating. I spent so much time studying it and yet.. I am so disappointed. Could it be my way of studying was not precise,enough? I studied like i always do, for all the subjects. Not good at others too,though. Anyways, i thought the time i spent and the input would be sufficient to answer those basic questions. And they were basic actually. I felt so stupid. I have two more tests back to back tomorrow and day after and i didn't touch any of it because i like immuno more. Argh! The feeling of dissatisfaction!i know i only have myself to blame.shouldn't whine but jsut cant help it, so excuse me for that then.
Right, Am supposed to study for environment biochem now. It is as boring as the name suggests:/



Dissatisfied,
-peach-

STop tellin' me that k

Am home on a Wed Afternoon when usually i'd be in the gym, studying by the pool. I can't do workout today due to the pain. i felt more today and even if i insist on doing, the workout wouldn't be wholesome. I felt so when i was in the Bodycombat class last Monday. I couldn't jump any higher nor kick stronger. It was such an incomplete workout to me even though i still sweat as much and looked active. I couldnt relax myself. I couldn't help it but feltl disturbed ,though this may seem a minor problem to others. Others could just say, it's JUST gym and you should just rest at home instead. it's not like you cant live without it. You'll only die if you dont eat. Which was true but yet it's just not easy to live without it now (My god, i'm talking now as if it is a relationship, haaah..) i just hate it when people tell me that. Well,To ease that, i've resorted to swimming . See, i just cant sit and not do exercise k. I must do something. Is this what they call exerciselemia?thought i read something like this before,somewhere. Anyway now.., i'm waiting for the rain to stop and gonna head to the pool although i'm also fasting today. I fasted and swam too yesterday. It was slightly more tiring. Went breathless quite fast. Speaking of which, it really takes a lot of discipline to fast for the whole day. I nearly succumbed to my desire to want to take a sip of drink when i came home just now. I was thinking it is only a sip but the other part of me kept saying 'no,no'. hah i think i sounded quite gila and drama la. Probably too much of drama scenes i've viewed/encoutered lately. Dramas, dramas.. I think i could be as talented as these ppl too seriously;p Discovering potentials..haha.. so @cey.
Great! the rain has stopped. I better get few things done here before jumping in the pool. (actually it took me quite some time to finish typing the blog coz am also doing work at the same time. thats why the rain stopped this soon ler :D)
chao

-drama?! peach-
(not that good yet, still discovering..)
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Totally OFF! sense of logicality, sensibility, rationality and etc*lity...

I am all drenched and feeling just so exhausted right now. At one point, u will just feel like leaving everything undone there as it is and won't want to bother. There you see , i'm here checking out funny images rather than doing the 'mounting' workloads. maybe i should go get a kitkat bar later...

-stressed peach- ( A stressed peach looks dry, pale and non-appetizing) eh What the heck am i talking?! Anywayss... kitkat, kitkat, kitkat~~

Happy fasting

Today is my first day & first time of fasting in the Ramadhan month. i mean fasting as in really fasting which goes waking up as early as 5am to 'sahur' , buka puasa in the evening and the most challenging part is to have to go without drinking water in the day time. i did try fasting before but was not the proper way the muslims are doing. That was more like dieting ;) (ops!) Now that my housemate is waking up early to sahur, i have motivation to give it a try. i want to challenge myself to really stick to the real fasting manner and let's see how it'd turn out to be :) Well, It's good that it actually helps in building a strong self-discipline within yourself. i'm waking up early for my immuno assignment too, to submit later in the afternoon.

Back to work now with bloaty stomach;p (ahh,too full ady!)

From fantasyland to reality...

Xcapade is hot-to go! It has been a tiring but worthwhile three days two nights in P.Dickson. We just came back this evening, physically. I think i left my mind there or probably it's taking its time slowly travelling back to KL. Am still kind of lost , not knowing what to do first and next. Because we have been away from all the assignments, tests and stresses and It was as though we were in a fantasyland. Having fun with the dearest people around me as well as the new juniors. It was such a lovely escape from the real world. i wished Xcapade was a 5days & 4 nights camp.
It was my 3rd time being in Xcapade. Same place with familiar as well as new faces. it felt like home.
Well, I'm so glad to say that i've achieved this small goal that i've set to myself after my first experience in Xcapade as a delegate. I told myself that i'd come back for the second time as the organising committee of the camp and the third time as the faci. I've made it! I felt so proud of myself that i actually could make it happen. The satisfactory feeling is just so overwhelming. I was thinking , the fourth time as the alumni ;p hrm,that would all depends then. It was really good to see the juniors engaging themselves in the activities and was even better to watch them improve throughout the camp itself. i really hope they were inspired. Was great knowing these bunch of new people.
Gosh i'm just so reluctant to come back, argh! Back lisum,focus! Assignments, meetings, lectures, tests are all coming next in line. I need some time to adjust the mode. Would do it in my next session later in the dreamland.
~lalala...zzzzzzz~

-peach-

Past, Present & Future?

Recently the thought of him came back to me. Like i mentioned in my previous entry. Today, one of my housemate conducted a round of tarot card game and i went on asking about this question. The game goes like telling about the past, present and future about the proposed question. Obviously, my question was this, him. I wanted to know the subconscious me have totally forgotten him or not and that i can be able to move on completely.The outcome, well, the Past ; it was a card that shows a family consisting dad-carrying a toddler, Mom and a boy-playing with a mini-sized gold horse on the grass. There is a scenery of mountain and lake on the background and 10 gold pentacles on both sides of the card. The mom and dad dont look happy. So this card tells that I looked happy with him but was not really so then. This was from the image of the peaceful-looking family yet bearing upset faces.However there was hope as it was represented by the toddler in the family. The emotions between us then were quite distant like the peaceful-nice looking scenery on the background that seems distant from the family. Forgotten what the pentacles represent.Well, i could see the overall relevance somehow. Moving on to the second card, the Present ; It turned out to show a human with a horse lower-body in a dark man-made cave as though he is trapped. There is a shine of light on top of the creature and he is holding a scroll. And so it says that the scroll is like a law that i should follow and the light tells that i know what i shoud follow whereas the horse lower body represents the strength to do such. Meaning that, i should do what i think i should which is ignore the thought and should not doubt my feelings. The thirdcard-Future ; A princess and a cupid are holding hands and in a heaven-like place with an arch that has engravement details of happy-holding hand couples and family. Both of them looking happy at each other and there are 10 cups in front of them. Sounds like a good card right? The 10 cups represent my emotions which are complete, meaning strong i guess. Yes it supposedly is a good one but what does that mean then? Meaning am i gonna end up with him again, but happily this time? like a happy ending in a fairytale? It wouldnt be a good card to me then. However then i was assuming that it could mean my question of me having to completely move on. Meaning i finally could and found a better, new person instead. Yes, i see it that way. haha! After all, im the one who is going to control everything about myself and decice on how i want it to be. I guess this is what was being told in the Present card, the strength. I think i have it in me now. And i know what i should do for now:)
I'm pretty sure some of u might be thinking that i'm superstitious that i believe in all these tarot thingy. I didnt say that i'm believing it full-heartedly. It is just a guidance and no-one should trust 100%. You are the one who is going to determine your fate and no-one, i repeat, NO-ONE can see the future exactly. Anyway, i was pretty happy with the outcome. =D

-peach-

Types of STRESS

I LURRRVEEEE IMMUNO, DAMN!

There are the few types of stresses that im dealing with now :-

1. immuno( screwed up test!)
2. membrane & neurochem tests this Thurs!
3. not being able to go to the gym for four days, FOUR days!
4. pain on my knees, irritating! worried..
5. the consequence of my knee pain, have to refrain from STEP classes!
6. hormone imbalance?! testoterone > progestron? that was why, i guess???
7. Money not enough, which i think is everyone else's stress.

p/s : dont mind this piece of blog looking like some lecture notes ;p

-peach-

Was it the coffee(s) or just the mind?

*blink blink* I am so awake right now. I had three cups of coffee today ;for breakfast, lunch and teatime. I wanted to keep myself awake to study for the tests nextweek and i ended up so energetic till this hour. it didnt work this well on the days of my lectures. Could it be just the mind? Well then, i should psycho myself to sleep now, hrm.. and when u cant fall asleep, your mind tend to travel..
This came about quite random here but Recalling the conversation i had with my housemates this afternoon, this one thing kept me wondering. Have i actually had gotten over him, completely??? I am quite confused. The thought of him came back to me recently and since then, i have been wondering if that was just a random thought of him or i actually missed him? I was positive that i have had deleted him off my mind and outta my heart. however, i started to doubt myself. uh hum.. this is kinda tricky here. But why do i want to question this? Perhaps something relevant about him that brought back the memory. it isnt illogical,is it? Anyway, i am comfortable the way i am now and i do not think(and do not hope) that i'm still bearing the hope for him. Anyhow, i appreciated the things that i've learnt from him and it has really made me stronger. It feels so good with the new strength that i've finally found:)

-peach-

I just love doing IT

I have loved it since the first time i went for IT. The passion for IT started to grow bit by bit each time i do IT. The more i do, the more passionate i grew upon IT. I started from a beginner to an intermediate/advanced do-er now and i have to admit that i was a fast learner. I picked up the MOVES in such short time. Once he performed the MOVE, i could practice it well already(at least i think i did) I could say i'm getting more graceful and i love seeing myself doing it from the reflection of the mirror. I feel sexy and beautiful. And i do IT along with musics. The faster the music gets, the faster i go and the more 'syiok' it gets. I just love it when there are more turnings. i, somehow, gained a higher self-confidence when i keep doing it. I feel really happy and `high' each time i do IT.The ovewhelming adrenaline rush, increased heart pumpings, spinning music, all combines to create the so-great feeling.Ah, I just love the sensation! Now, i have got addicted and the idea of not doing it anymore doesnt fancy me at all. Yes and i am feeling really miserable right now because i have to stop doing IT for the moment. In fact, i have stopped for almost a week. Like today, i had the chance to do it but i couldnt. i just cant. I was advised to not do IT at so high intensity and do it slower and that i'm still young, i should not do IT that much to the extent i'm getting pain now. Although it is now mild but it can cause serious injury if it is not handled in the right way. The pain is irritating. Each time i thought i want to do IT as i think it is just mild pain and i cant resist the temptation to go for IT, the pain is felt. It probably knows what i'm thinking and giving me warning signs to stay away before things get worse. i felt so helpless and i can only watch others doing IT. Pity me. Not just i have to bear the pain(physically) but also the pain of losing the sensation. IT is one my favourite routine and it is my passsion. Now dont get any idea, i'm talking about my passion for Step Moves in my gym and i'm so upset that i have to refrain myself from doing it now due to the pain that i'm feeling on my knee. It is mild yet risky if i ignore it. If anyone is a gym brat here, i would suggest trying IT=) Trust me, give a lil patience in the beginning,u'd sure love it. As much as i do. Sigh, hopefully the pain fades after some time later. Not getting any treatment though. I should really take it easy now and take good care of the condition. i have heard of serious cases such as knee cap replacement and in fact, most step instructors have done so as too much of damage has been done to their knees for the amount of classes they've conducted all year long. So right now, im taking a week off step totally and see how it goes. If the pain ( touch wood) prolongs, i'd probably seek a chinese sifu for treatment. Let's just hope it will cure itself. i think got such thing like auto-healing ,right? i will have to believe there is... or otherwise... :(
Enough of expressing my love for IT, i have to start to 'love' Immunology. The test is on next MOnday and i could hardly understand the topic. Probably i should read it as my bedtime story just as what my lecturer is practising (yes, she told us she did and still is,crazy huh? i mean not her but her passion for it) u see, passion can make a person goes wild. passion, passion, passion. i should generate the passion for immuno then...
i loveimmuno, i love immuno, i love immuno..(psychoing myself)

-peach-

Things just weren't right

I was like a total zombie the whole day today. i felt like i was zombying around uni this whole afternoon. everything wasnt right since the minute i woke up early this morning or precisely during my sleep last night. i had a nightmare which seemed so real, spooky, ok..shall not talk about that. Then,i went to uni looking like moron, the hair, the clothes matching..so out! by the way, i wanted to wake up earlier at 6am to study for my test at 830am but did not because i was frightened by the nightmare and so, i continued sleeping. good thing i could do at least some of the test questions and managed to complete my assignment to submit on today. (good job, lisum) self-praising is good at times,haha! Speaking of which, i walked a lot in uni today, from fac to lecturer's block in another end -submit assignment,to bank, to KPS and back to AIESEC office. Was so exhausted and i almost tripped myslf 3x, 3Xs!Gosh, so silly. When i finally settled my stuff in uni and came back before meeting at730pm, i felt a sudden rush in me to mop my room even though i was dead tired. Random, wasnt i? Lia, my housemate, commented on me looking pale when she saw me. I saw the reflection in the mirror,looking so horrible. pale lips, dark-circled eyes, emotionless expressions, my god, so ugly-looking! Then went to meeting looking as bad too. DUring the meeting, i was just sitting there as though mind was flown elsewhere. I came back, tried to study but nothing came to progress. The headache i was having since the morning topped up to the bad condition. Evrything adds together and made me feel like a crap hence the blog to ease my feelings. Tomorrow i gotta focus on studying for my test on wed, BIOCHEMISTRY2! Glycolysis, gluconeogenesis, enzymes and what not to memorise.
ok.i should have a good rest now.

nitez

-peach-

This is a tiramisu that i got from my family members( left).
The other one was from my dear sohpohs ( right)




This was my third one from my dearie housemates , cesiea-cers =)

Isnt it lovely? ;) tHIS was from my dear sisters-friends

Lisum on 8th AUG

Yesterday was my 22nd birthday and it was one of my happiest day. I had 3 cakes and two lovely surprises from my dearie sisters, EBs and housemates. The first was from my housemates and my dear EBs. They surprised me at home. Before that, we were having discussion in Hillpark among the EBs and it lasted till 12am. They sang me a birthday song which was quite random as we were in the midst of a serious talk. ANyway, a few of them left after the discussion ended and i had to wait for Nadine to go home together. I really wanted to leave as soon as possible because i was very,very tired and i could almost fall asleep while waiting Nadine to finish her talk with a few others. i actualy thought of calling Rene before he left Hillpark to send me home first but didnt in the end. Then, finally we left and reached home and i thought i could sleep soon after. but when we reached our doorstep, i saw Goay's, Geen's and Rene's shoes. There were here! i seriously thought they went home after the meeting coz everyone was tired and had assignment to do back home. but it was so quite when we came in and no one bunked out or anything. Weird! but i knew they were in somewhere. Mawar was sleeping when in the room and i kept telling Nadine that they were here. but she didnt bother me, pretending. When i realized our bathroom door ws locked from the inside i felt something was not right and i never would have thought they actually hid in there as the lights were off. but it was funny that the door was locked from the inside. i started questioning and Mawar woke up ( pretending) that someone must have locked accidentally after using and accused Geen. After a while, Goay came out with a cake and the rest of them appeared. Four of them actually hid in the bathroom! i believed Mawar that it was locked accidentally. gosh! she has good acting skill. most Aiesecers have good acting skill though. I was so touched by them. was such a sweet surprise, really. i knew they would celebrate for me, probably the next day i thought coz it takes much effort to stay and celebrate after 12am. Anyway, guys, thanx loads and i would say the surprise plan have succeeded 90%. As for the -10%, it was caused by THE SHOES, right outside, so obvious!(haha!) So..lesson learnt was that shoes must be hidden well to keep the surprise a surprise ;p i guess if not because of it,i would have fall entirely to the plan. That was sweet anyway=)




At night, i celebrated with my group of sisters. They came all the way to PJ to celebrate with me. The surprise they gave me was the customized cake (there, my surprised look in the pic). It has a lovely, cartoon tortoise on it (although i dont really acknowledge myself a tortoise) the reason they call me that for i used to walk very slow but well, i walk faster than anybody now. A friend that i knew from my LI company named me as 'the bullet walk' as i walked real fast. The name sounds funny though;p anyway, thanx for coming all the way here for me and the lovely cake(yes, i mean it!) love u girls lots!

Overall, i had a GREAT 22nd birthday celebration and i was feeling really happy the whole day. Oh i bought a muffin as a little treat for myself and each year now,i'll be getting muffin for myself on birthdays and it actually started last year. i realized then i need to pamper and love myself more as i think i havent been really treating myself good enough. u need to love yourself in order for others to. why would people wanna treat u well if u are being a jerk to yourself? ;) i think my body needs rest, shouldnt mistreating it haha!
yay, my aunt's gonna bring me out tmrw for a bday treat=D hehe..

Surprise back at home ;)

Good thing that i decided to go home instead of Malacca last Saturday. My family actually celebrated my birthday in a simple yet heart-touching manner especially from my sis. I initially wanted to join Goay , Geen & a few interns to Malacca for two day's , one night trip. I wanted to go for the food. However my mom stressed over the phone the night before that i should be home this weekend. As usual i thought she insisted me because she has always been discouraging me to go out at nights as she pressumed i would hang out late at night if i stay here in pj. That is so not true. I do work here k. Of course i hang out late once in a while and If any more also would be my meetings ler. Ok..and ive got a Tiramisu cake:D ! It tasted good but my mom limited me to it as ive history of allergic with cake once, the most recent case. Anyway, i had quite a lot in the end, haha! It was a vegetarian cake with no eggs so it was healthy.
But right now, i have tummy ache and had diarrhea yesterday when i came back pj. I assumed it was Murni's food which, if it was, the effect was considered quite slow coz we went there last Thursdsay. Haha, it got all the blames. coz there are a few of us had diarrhea and pukings the day after the supper. speaking of which, the pain now gets worse. Was still ok when i was in the meeting with my fellow EBs. This week is so packed with meetings, interviews and such. Tomorrow i gotta do extraction for my lab work which is a time consuming work. Boiling and extracting takes more than 4 hours. i have got another assignment today and two tests next week. Woohoo this is gonna be great! and there goes my gym routine and oh,my birthday...
tummy pain unbearable. i should just get the med and sleep.
Nitez
-peach-

Lisum is exhausted yet glad

Haaaaahhh! i am so tired today. and finally i am home and nicely bathed. ready to go to bed soon. eyes are getting heavier. will be going jogging tomorrow morning around 630am(hopefully can wake up) will be my first time jogging around tiara. i had this thought when i was doing my proposal this morning at 6am. i thought it would be good to wake up earlier to go for a jog before class. As i have no time to go to gym this week and i started to feel uneasy without exercising the whole week and so i suggested to jog around here. Two of my housemates are joining me=) Yay!
Yeah and back to my proposal. ive shown it to my supervisor today with the other six of my coursemates sharing the same lecturer. Glad that it wasnt so bad as earlier i was panicking that i couldnt get anything. So we discussed with her what we are supposed to do for our theses. MIne is about the antidiabetic effect by a few plant extratcs, strobilanthes, gyrana and tongkat ali. from her expanation, it seems somewhat interesting, the research. previously i felt so dreadful thinking of the theses but doesnt seem so now. hopefully it'll be a very fun lab work.
Oh and yay! i submitted my assignment as well! sigh * relieved*
But then..not just yet. AIESEC, aiesec and aiesec. There's always something there to keep us busy with. this week is the week for newbies interviews to get into projects, meeting MCs, recruitment booths and of course, EB meet and EB meet. Anyway, hanging out with my dear,fellow EBs and squeezing brains together for planning and such is quite enjoyable at times. So Much better than to sit and listen to dry lectures. Haha! Gosh, this semester i must work my brain and heart and soul and whatever out to catch up my grades. This is a real challenge! Further more i am starting my lab work on theses on this Friday, doing plant extraction.
Oh btw, welcome to the month ofAugust!!! Woohoo~ :D

Bed time, Great! The best time of all. at least those things are off your mind for few hours.
Alarm : 615am. Hours to sleep : 5hrs 0mns from now... Nitez

-peach-

Home sweet home on a lovely Sunday but not lovely on the assignment part

Yay! i went home today after, yeah, spent my few hours in the gym(wont miss today). Today was the last day of my fav instructor teaching i n CF on sunday. He's stopping for a month but i presume would be longer. An extra class doesnt make much of a difference to his total income anyway. I hope CF wont place a lousy instructor for the step class,otherwise, spoil my sunday routine. Today's step moves was fun=) Such a satisfying workout. Poor guy, he lost his wallet in Celebrity Fitness. He has lost 1K besides the cards. Gosh, that's alot of money. And now he's cancelling the class. Shouldnt he do more to earn back the loss? He's just another victim of luxurious achiever. Nvm,back to my day@ home. i went home after doing some grocery shopping in Jusco. Spent another 40bux, hrm. i just mentioned yesterday that i spent a lot.
So glad to see my parents and dearie brothers especially my youngest bro. i noticed he has slimmed down a lil' haha! that was the first i said to him when i was home. So nasty of me ;p as i always used to tease his figure and he would play along with me,saying, omg,i should eat more then. sigh, my chubby cutie bro. he was so happy when i bought him this yummy choc biscuits from Ikea. He just loves to eat. We had early dinner today. Home cooked meal, Mmmmm~ MOm just know me. she knows i love healthy steamed food.But now im having diarrhea ler. Was it the food..? im paranoid ady whenever encountering diarrhea. thank God, i'm still fine now.
Then i came back Tiara around 830pm. Started my assignment typing and still searching material. guess i cant sleep early tonight.

Gonna cry through the night ;'/

Home Alone

Everyone is going everywhere except for me. i am home alone here , searching materials for my theses proposal and also for my assignment wherelse all my housemates went to intern party and some went dinner out. i bet the home alone kid enjoyed it more than i do. random but anyway, i chose to blog when im stressed up, although it might be bored to read.
HELP! What's scientific literature? citation? reference? i am not allowed to cut & paste from the internet but where else can i get info from then..? The due dates are on the coming Monday and one on Tuesday. Is there a smarter way to cut & paste from net that is not noticeable? I basically wasted my time today , waiting for bus back to tiara. I could have get some stuff done. i have planned my time for the day nicely but got a bit out now. i have less than solid 6 hours to do my work.i could have gone home to see my parents and dearest siblings but i chose to stay in here to finish the stuff. no matter what, i still go to the gym(haha!) I was almost exploded when i couldnt catch the step moves in the step class today in the gym. The one step that i missed screwed the following moves, that was so frustrating. And sharing step board with a heavy body odor fella agitated me even more.Gosh!im sorry but that was so unbearable, could faint man! when the air brushes across u. I guess my hormone was imbalance in addition to the stress, poor fella. ANyway, i hope he would do something about it.
Aww, i wasted my time last night also. i went to dinner in Sakae Sushi, a jap restaurant(yeah,obviously).Oh And it was such an irony that i went there for chicken instead of its fresh,yummy scallops, ebis, crabs & salmons. So pathetic. This can be applied by the literal translated chinese saying; can see,cannot eat. My allergic histories, i dare not try a single bit. The teriyaki chicken tasted nice though;p i had tofu and fried vege also which tasted good too. A recommendation to dine in there! =) Now i wish to try the Delish,opening soon in Midvalley. Apparently it shares the same boss as the Delicious by Ms Read. They probably serve different dish. Delicious serves good food too.
This weekend...Oh! I am so broke. I went out with only 2bux in my purse. I need to save for a laptop backpack which ive been wanting for so long but has had no money allocated for it. I cant possibly carry the one-sided sling bag all around uni everytime. i need to carry it out more often this semester but it's just so heavy. My shoulder suffered. I wonder when will i be able to save that much of $$. I am now spending more as i'm staying out. I remembered when i stayed in hostel, sometimes i hardly use a single cent. i cooked for myself :) Instant food hehe. As a VPAF, i shall learn more on the ways to generate extra income. Not just for LC but also for myself, haha!

Guess i am feeling better now. Not so tensioned. Should go back to work.
Ciaoz~

-peach-

Sharing the fun moments :D

Nadine, me & Lia
Aren't they cute? The red one is my fav:) My looks is just comparable to theirs (as young, haha!)
The BASF Kids Lab Team
One of the testimonials from the kids. Read clearly, do u see my name in it? haha, yeah they love my session;)



This was the opening ceremony hall.

Peace, finally

I am here in Tiara, alone, enjoying the peace and comfort while doing the paperwork for @. I am not trying to say that i dislike having my housemates around. i was saying finally i am able to sit at home in the afternoon doing all the things i want to do here such as listening to music, house chores and sitting down to plan my stuff. Some times u really need a minute or two to sit down quietly and plan your stuff well. Like i've mentioned, i moved in officially last Sunday and i hadn't been spending a single afternoon in this apartment. i left the apartment as early as 8.30am and came home around 12-1am. Only today i found the time to. i have no Friday classes. Went uni though to meet my lecturer regarding my theses and LI results but she didnt want to entertain any of us so wasted my energy and time. i could have slept more. Then i went gym and came back before 3pm. Since then i was here in front of my pc till now. and im having diarrhea =( Actually i could have gone home today but the wireless here is more convenient for me to do work. Missed home and mom's cook. Dont think so tomorrow will be able to go home also as the Dutchs are coming and we have to entertain them.
Well, all these are not significant events but then blogging them just so i could keep track of my daily routines. Reading them again in the future will be pretty entertaining, i think ;)

New Semester



Day 2

IT was just 2nd day but it feels like it had been two months started sem. From last sunday till just now we had @ meetings that ended late at night. The next few days will also be coming home late. There were very tiring and came back with works to be done too. This is totally expected to be in the Board. This will be the best time for me to learn time management seriously. Studies, theses, AIESEC , gym, family and myself .By the way, i have officially moved in to Tiara, my rental apartment in ss17 which am staying with few friends. i have not really stay a whole day here in this new place since i'm practically leaving hse early in the morning and coming back late at night. More like a hotel to me , hrm..
Today i got a new planner to organise my schedule better. Yay! I was looking for a nicer one but too expensive for the design and quality for those that i've seen. This one here is a cheaaap one, to just have my things planned well so doesnt really matter. but i like having a nice one. It'll make u happier when planning things,i guess, for me yeah. probably i should include that in my next semester's stationary list:)
Classes are so far so good, i think. i thought to extend my credit hours to 23hrs but was too late to register and they disallow manual reg, too bad then. i thought to make my next sem free for my theses writing. i'd also be having a gymrama lesson this sem. should be interesting i guess. 830am tmw.. gtg

chaoz

BASF Fun Xperience

It was a really fun and interesting event. We conducted experiments with the school kids in the first two days and they came from rural schools which mostly were the Std 4-6 children. Some of them were pretty intelligent and some were not so clear of what they did. However, the most important thing was they all had fun and they learnt something new. Frankly speaking, even i myself have not heard of some of the experiments before. Of course cant forget those cute ones as well as those nasty ones. i was conducting an experiment which we called 'superabsorber' where it was a chemical material that can absorb water very well and yet does not leaks when we squeezed. it is applied in baby diapers. It was very simple demostration and also was using the diapers. Some of the kids were shy seeing pampers and they went..'ee..yer...' When they finally knew what turned out in the end, they were impressed and the impressed looks they made were so fun to watch. We were also being provided food, catered food. The first meal on our training day got us all food poising and most of us got diarrhea. It occured to me at 4am and i thought another allergy attck but fortunately it wasnt. thank god. i was so paranoid coz the last time i had recently was started off with diarrhea. The next day we went for our Day1, we found out quite a number of us got as well. So i wasnt the only one hence the suspect on the lunch the day before. we all got paranoia eating the food provided the days after but gladly there were fine then. Day 3 at work for us was challenging as the kids were as young as 3 yrs old. A 3yrs kid did experiment! Of course was guided by parents and us. Some were just too hyper but was so enjoyable. i felt like being in YV =) Besides that, the kids were given sort of like an evaluation sticker to write on about anything they like and pasted on the boards we provided. Some of them wrote that they like us in particular our names, in their sticker. i had a few =p i felt so touched when reading that,awww.. Anyway, we, facis also had a lot of fun among ourselves too. i would say this was the most enjoyable event job that i worked for. You get paid for having fun haha! tiring though. coz we needed to bend most of the time to talk to the kids as they are all short and tiny. Backached ;p BASF really did a great thing for these children. COngratulations!
Couldnt upload some nice pics taken on the event today. Maybe later:)

BASF Training session

Okay..this will be a quick one. My bro is waiting for me to watch heroes together and it's getting late now. i have to wake up extra early tomorow for the BASF event. i went for the training session today in National Science Center from 9am to 3 something. Just found out that BASF is actually a chemical company, very huge and establised in fact. They supply chemical substances such as styrofoam, paints, plastics and such to manufacturers to make the end consumer products. This event is actually a kids' lab event where the BASF is actually organising it to introduce fun in chemistry to school childern to develop the interest and sort of tickle their fancy. It is an event held by the chemical company as a way to position their company to the society. The sch kids are mostly from rural area and we were told that some can be as young as 3-4 years old. Our job description, to teach/guide them in performing the few lab experiments that are set by the company. Even i,myself learnt something new today. We were taught about the experiments and had a hands on practice so that it'll be easier tomorrow. We are the fascillitator and supposed to teach the kids to do in proper way and encourage them to be inquisitive. Show to them thewonders of science and how we needed them in our daily routines. We will have interactive sessions with the kids. i think it's gonna be fun. The briefing about the job sounds exciting and i'm looking frward to it. it feels like Young Visionaries again :)
Alright, catching heroes!
ciaoz!

=) farewell LI =( missing sis

Aah! Finally my LI is over. I have few days left to rest before the new term starts next week I have also done my report, wee~ Not submitted though. Will do tomorrow morning before going for the BASF. I’ve no idea yet about the whole event and I just know it is regarding kids, science and lab stuff. I am actually working part time for this 3days event, 5-7th July. Tomorrow is the training. I must at least work for a paid job this holiday since my LI company not paying me and I need to earn back at least the money that I’d spent traveling to the company. For the two months, I had spent at least, I think, 3-4 hundreds. anyway, today was my last day in the company although it wasn’t my working day. I don’t think I’ll visit there again anytime soon. I went there just to print out the report and got validation from my supervisor. Half of the day I was still doing the report. Worked late last night too. That was why I looked weary today. Need facial mask, I guess. Haven’t been doing it for some time. Such a bad habit for the skin, hrm. Probably tomorrow, I will. I know I should be sleeping by now. Need to get up early tomorrow. As early as 6.30am. But felt like dropping some stuff here, so it’ll be a quick one.
I miss sis. Guess what?! She got UM too! Instincts told me she would so it was right, haha! My all time, best companion. We could still go gym and do things together. I cant imagine she getting uni further than KL. I’d be miserably lonely although I still have my brothers, parents and a bunch of crazy friends around., still is different from having sis with me. She is just like another me. She’s the one that knows best of me. Sometimes, she seems to know what I’m thinking and we have mutual interests. Even when we don’t speak, we just know what we are going to say. Pretty scary though. I cant keep secrets from her then. She’d know all my evil plans, if i ever have.;p I don’t think I can meet anyone else that could understand me so well like she could, not even partners. Poor thing, she must be suffering in the orientation now. Few sleeping hours, unnecessary talks and stuff like that. It made me think of my orientation experience. I could only remember sleeping late and waking up early and did funny jingles in the middle of the night in front of other’s residential college. They had no better things to do, I’m sorry, this was how I felt. My sis wasn’t so lucky to get 12th. She got 9th and she wasn’t so happy when she first saw the rooms because she has stayed in 12th before. I brought her in to accompany me during my study break last sem when my roomie wasn’t in. She was studying for her STPM too. So both of us were working hard together and I’m so proud of her that she got 4.0 pointer in her STPM. She even appeared in the media. Felt like as though it was my achievement. Love ya’ sis! =D

~peach~

Another series of unfortunate event

Another series of unfortunate allergy attack. It happened again. It was on a Tuesday midnight /Wed morning when I was out celebrating friend’s birthday. We got her a chocolate ice-cream cake from Baker’s Cottage. I joined them after my workout in the gym and I did not eat anything before that, just a cup of hot honey milk in the café. And I had the cake. We left not long after cutting and eating the cake to be home earlier as some of us had to work the next day and some got class. So it was past 12 am and I reached home before 1am. I had slight stomachache while I was on the way home and I didn’t suspect any allergic reaction at all. I thought I was clean, just a piece of cake and milk, will not do any harm. How sure was I ?! I got diarrhea once I got home and slowly I felt it coming. My eyes watery and swelling. Could feel the blood rushing in my face and then the nose running. I knew then my nasal passage would be blocked and not able to breathe through it. And so it was predicted right. I seemed to have familiarize with it now. Of course, I still feel scared and panicked. I was so afraid to wake up my parents coz I knew I’d get scolding definitely. They were disallowing me to go out again after coming back from gym which was already almost 10pm. I insisted to go because it was my friend’s birthday, my close friend. It was reasonable, wasn’t it? I even took my anti-histamine which I keep with me all the time but It was too late. I woke them up in the end as I knew I could not do anything else if I don’t get the drug. I was so guilty disturbing my parents’ sleep and worse, gave them another pain to worry. I was rushed to HUKM again and along the way, I was polished nicely by mom. She kept repeating, `if u had listened to me and stayed at home, this will not happen!’ the guilt topped up to my suffering. I could not reason back coz it indeed happened as a result of my disobeying. But..was I really wrong to just wanted to celebrate a friend’s birthday and I didn’t know that the cake could cause me allergy. How am I supposed to know that? I had cakes and was totally fine with them. My parents suspected that it probably not fresh and had been infected by germs.
In the hospital, I had another round of torture. I had needle poking and injection on my left and right hand at the same time. Left arm was injection and right hand was being poked and taken blood for test. The poking into my vein was so much pain as it was done by a non professional nurse. She poked few times and ordered me to grasp my knuckles so she could poke right into the vein, OMG that was horrible pain! The left arm jap was hurtful than the previous times. These nurses and doctors are , I’m sorry to say, not well-trained. If u think I am trying to downgrade them, I think u people should come and watch them work yourselves. The way they are working there are so unprofessional. They could laugh and joke and the ward was filled with noises none other than theirs. I know It doesn’t sound right to criticize on other’s working attitude but this is a business that I ,and everyone else ,should mind because it concerns people’s life! I thought it is a common understanding that doctors and nurses are supposed to keep their professionalism high at work. But I really doubt this bunch of people here. When I was pushed into the ward , I was being questioned by the nurses and a doctor, I assumed. There was a bunch of them and I wasn’t sure who was the doctor and who the nurse. I told them I just had a piece of cake and the scenario was like.. `moi, u makan kek apa?’ I replied ` choc cake’. ` kek mana ni? Secret recipe ke? Aiyoo, sayang la kalau iaya ni’ ` amoi tak untung la’ ( laughing) Isnt this hilarious?! Am I supposed to laugh at their joke or feel upset about their attitude? Although I was struggling to breathe through my mouth passage, my mind was still conscious of every single joke they made. Seriously I was really frustrated at that time. Oh and before I forget to mention, while I was staying on bed waiting for the drug to take its effect, I could see two of the so-called doctors were playing computer games on their desk, right opposite my bed! I could even hear the games beeping noises. So god-damn annoying! I am not making up all these. The scenario was totally different in this private hospital in Klang I’d been to during my previous attack. I could say they worked professionally, even the syringes poking wasn’t as hurtful as this time’s. However the medicinal and consultation cost of course is higher, much higher. But at least u feel safer and relieve being under their care. My dad asked the doctor whether they’d know about the test for the allergen and they replied they have no idea about that, sigh. I’ve urged dad to find out as soon as possible. I feel afraid to eat now after this incidence because I’d never expected cakes. I thought I’d be safe avoiding seafood in my meals. I felt really bad causing the worry on my parents. Dad could not go to work the next day. He was very tired after accompanying me in the hospital. I saw mom and dad slept on the hard, plastic chairs. I felt heartache causing them all these, not to mention the worry I gave. The only thing that I can do is to take good care of myself , but I know still, it would not lessen much of their worriesL

Introducing Li Heart's new blog site..!!!

WELCOME to my new blog site! wee! :D
I will start blogging here, shifting myself from frenster's blog. There are always new stuff happening in life and so i think blogging is a good way to pen down memories,be it sweet or bitter. Sweet to savour the mind but bitter provides lesson to be learnt ( i Think..?am trying to think positive, trying ;p)

Yes, i am blogging here at work place, again. ANd yes today is Saturday and my boss's not around hence the freedom. But she will be free next week, so..will be busier then.
Going gym later and then shop for some formal clothings for Natcon. I need a pair of good shoes, a formal top and to send my blazer for dry cleaning. does anyone know where can i get dry cleaning service around sri petaling area? i urgently need to get it done before Thursday. i am leaving for Natcon to UTM on Thurs night. Will have to miss gym for 5 days.
By the way,tomorrow's Father's Day! Need to come up with something for my beloved daddy. Happy Father's Day, everyone!

Ciaoz!
~peach~