26th October. I could still reminisce the farewell morning at the Subang airport 6 months ago. Sending sis away. I still remember my hot tears rolling down my cheeks on my way home from the airport. I am very bad at farewell. Yeay, She's coming back, TOMORROW!!! Time flies so fast. Glad that she enjoyed herself there :) Looking forward to tomorrow night!
27Oct - Dad's birthday. I gave him the watch today. Too bad there was no surprise, Mom has shown him before. We will go for a dinner in the weekend :) with sis and bro around. To the famous and yummy pork leg restaurant.
I start to feel depressed whenever thinking about my hair loss. I felt like I have lost half of the amount I used to have. It's so,so,so upsetting. And I dont know how to control it. Everytime as I wash my hair, there'll be a ball of hair clumped together on the bathroom floor. Can you imagine they drop so fast but growth is so slow? It feels almost hopeless thinking of this. I have started using mild shampoo, hair loss lotion and wash very thoroughly each time. I even shampoo twice at one time. I dont know what else to do. I even had it trimmed shorter.
Yun Nam? Svenson? They are so expensive and not guaranteed. Sigh :(
Not just my hair giving me stress, my knees too. I recently went to consult a chiropractic doc and found that I am flat-footed which have somewhat affected the way my feet move and make the knees more prone to damage. I was advised to wear the orthontics, whenever I have my feet moving on the ground. They were so pricey but I would rather treat with this than needling. The orthontics are said to align my feet and the bone/nerve and give the right support when I walk. Hopefully they really work.
I', such a troublesome girl. I'm only 24 ;(
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I'm such an 'F'!
On a Tuesday morning, the first working day of the week, it started off so gloomy. Cold and dark. It affected the mood so much. I felt as though I was alone. Although I have my 'new' hair but i didn't feel so excited. I would usually be excited using or having something new. Being the 'F' that I am, weather does affect my mood. Plus I think I am extroverted F. It does help to understand people and myself better by knowing the types. And being the 'I' with my affected mood today, I became the extreme 'I'. Totally not in the mood to say things and responded only for the sake of responding and out of courtesy. I just learnt something new today, well actually not new but I didnt really take note of this earlier, that a person would act the total opposite of his/her own type but in a poor condition when the person is being put under depression. For example, an ISFJ would behave like an ENTP but at its worst when he/she lost the grip. Meaning to say, the J who always is so organised and structured would be a P who does things in a super unstructured and messy way (they are unorganised as it is) when the J is stressed out. An original P is someone who can adapt quickly to changes and are flexible. They can be unorganised in their communication, flow of thoughts and even in their decisions but that's the way they are. They can say 10 million things but may not all be formalised. So, you can imagine a stressed J to behave like a P but in a total messy manner.
Sometimes it's quite fun to type others especially people around me. I think my sis is an INTP, not too sure about the 'N' and 'T' but I'm very sure about the 'I' and somewhat certain about the 'P'. Why a P? Coz she is an unorganised person and her things are everywhere in the room! Wait till she gets home, the room basically is loaded with her stuff. and worst thing is, they're all over the place! And it gets on me all the time. Well, having said that, the best thing about Ps is that, even though they are all over the place, they know where to find their stuff. Isn't that amazing?! Another good indication of a P person is their desktop or inbox. Ps tend to leave their mails unchecked in the inbox and their desktop is filled with folders all over the screen. Man, she would glare at me if she was here ee..scary berry!*shiver* ;P
My mom is definately a P!! No doubt about it! Look at her room and kitchen. A confirmed and true P! I guess my first bro is a P too. I suppose my dad, my youngest bro and myself are Js in the family. My dad cleans up my mom's mess in the kitchen every time after her cooking. So J.
Indications of a J person are - you can find they are generally neat, organised in the way they keep things and dressed up, some even go to the extremes of color or pattern matching. SJ men tend to dress up well and some even with matching ties. Really! Besides that, J CANNOT leave their mails sitting unchecked in the inbox. They either be read or clicked at even though they are not read yet, just so they don't look like unchecked! You can also find their desktops are very much tidier with folders that are named appropriately and nicely organised. In J speech pattern, they normally speak in a clear and structured manner to the extent that you can almost predict what will be said next. Js typically conclude their speech while Ps tend to leave it open. If a true J speaks, it normally would go like, "this is so and so, that is so and so and THEREFORE it is such. This is the typical speech pattern of a true J. A typical P would say things like, " yeah, we can do this. we can also that. Oh, that one is also good" and they tend to leave it open like that. But a J would usually conclude by saying, "Yeah, all sounds good but we should be doing this.'
However, there is no good or bad for a certain type. A J may be very structured but because of the favour for structures, they tend to adapt rather slowly to changes and may stumble if not handled well. On the other hand, a P who is always open for possibilites is more adept to changes and they may fare better than J in such situations.
See, the MBTI type is fun and it's a good knowledge to have to help us understand people better. Now that I know my Mom is a P and she is being herself, I can't be too upset about her disorganised behaviour. So is my sis, I can't scream at her too often for leaving her stuff everywhere in the room. (hmm but she can't take it for granted though!) Nevertheless, they need to learn to keep things at least in place, if not neater. Just as I need to learn to flex better. :) Cool right?
Hmm how did this topic started??
Oh yeah, my F. Oh it's super extraverted now. Would tomorrow be less gloomy? :s I should probably go to bed soon. I has comfy bed :)
It feels lot better now :)
Sometimes it's quite fun to type others especially people around me. I think my sis is an INTP, not too sure about the 'N' and 'T' but I'm very sure about the 'I' and somewhat certain about the 'P'. Why a P? Coz she is an unorganised person and her things are everywhere in the room! Wait till she gets home, the room basically is loaded with her stuff. and worst thing is, they're all over the place! And it gets on me all the time. Well, having said that, the best thing about Ps is that, even though they are all over the place, they know where to find their stuff. Isn't that amazing?! Another good indication of a P person is their desktop or inbox. Ps tend to leave their mails unchecked in the inbox and their desktop is filled with folders all over the screen. Man, she would glare at me if she was here ee..scary berry!*shiver* ;P
My mom is definately a P!! No doubt about it! Look at her room and kitchen. A confirmed and true P! I guess my first bro is a P too. I suppose my dad, my youngest bro and myself are Js in the family. My dad cleans up my mom's mess in the kitchen every time after her cooking. So J.
Indications of a J person are - you can find they are generally neat, organised in the way they keep things and dressed up, some even go to the extremes of color or pattern matching. SJ men tend to dress up well and some even with matching ties. Really! Besides that, J CANNOT leave their mails sitting unchecked in the inbox. They either be read or clicked at even though they are not read yet, just so they don't look like unchecked! You can also find their desktops are very much tidier with folders that are named appropriately and nicely organised. In J speech pattern, they normally speak in a clear and structured manner to the extent that you can almost predict what will be said next. Js typically conclude their speech while Ps tend to leave it open. If a true J speaks, it normally would go like, "this is so and so, that is so and so and THEREFORE it is such. This is the typical speech pattern of a true J. A typical P would say things like, " yeah, we can do this. we can also that. Oh, that one is also good" and they tend to leave it open like that. But a J would usually conclude by saying, "Yeah, all sounds good but we should be doing this.'
However, there is no good or bad for a certain type. A J may be very structured but because of the favour for structures, they tend to adapt rather slowly to changes and may stumble if not handled well. On the other hand, a P who is always open for possibilites is more adept to changes and they may fare better than J in such situations.
See, the MBTI type is fun and it's a good knowledge to have to help us understand people better. Now that I know my Mom is a P and she is being herself, I can't be too upset about her disorganised behaviour. So is my sis, I can't scream at her too often for leaving her stuff everywhere in the room. (hmm but she can't take it for granted though!) Nevertheless, they need to learn to keep things at least in place, if not neater. Just as I need to learn to flex better. :) Cool right?
Hmm how did this topic started??
Oh yeah, my F. Oh it's super extraverted now. Would tomorrow be less gloomy? :s I should probably go to bed soon. I has comfy bed :)
It feels lot better now :)
Monday, August 31, 2009
The green monster
Just a little disoriented and uneasyyy.. :(
Not so enthusiatic about end of 31 Aug now.
Not so enthusiatic about end of 31 Aug now.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Merdeka, yay PH!
It's end of August, the Merdeka day and a public hol, yoohoo! I'm working on a long weekend though. Not so excited after all... Oooo I can hear fireworks outside, 5mins past 12.
What I'm gonna do tomorrow? Getting a hair cut and see what else I can do with my hair. My crown that makes me look like a crazy woman. I wish to get it permed again but not too sure if it's best to be done now, considering its condition. Hrmmm... Plus, my hair thinning problem is getting on me now. It's not gonna help if I do more harm to it, but what I can't take this either. If hunn was here, he'd probably say NO NEED! You look beautiful the way you are ;) He always charm me with his words :) And I know he means every single word he says.
Yeah but I need to listen to my heart as well. Hmm hmm should I or should I not??? Ok, i'll leave it to my hair dresser to advise me ;) Hehee.. (who ofcourse will agree with me!) Well, the thing that I like about my hair dresser is that he is not overtly profit-oriented, like most hair dressers do, he would give the best advise depending on the condition. I believe so.
I have this stupid habit - to pull my hair when I'm thinking/reading, basically when my hand is free. The consequence..my hair drops even more! I really need to kick myself for doing that but sometimes I couldnt help it. Sometimes I did it subconsciously and someone had to tell me off. My colleagues noticed that. Hmm someone gotta tie my hands when they're free :( Bad bad habit.
Lately I couldnt sleep too well. Took a while to fall asleep. Sometimes it seemed like my mind was awake but I was physically sleeping. I can't describe, I felt so drained up the next day. Yikes!
Sis just told me she's only coming back on 26th Oct. She's extending her stay in Redang to join in a diving project. happy for her but means that we're seeing her later. So nice to have someone to buy her the air tix but hrm, why so nice of him..?
Not tired but I should try sleeping. My mind is kinda disoriented now.
Anyway, glad that it's a Pub Hol tomorrow! :)
What I'm gonna do tomorrow? Getting a hair cut and see what else I can do with my hair. My crown that makes me look like a crazy woman. I wish to get it permed again but not too sure if it's best to be done now, considering its condition. Hrmmm... Plus, my hair thinning problem is getting on me now. It's not gonna help if I do more harm to it, but what I can't take this either. If hunn was here, he'd probably say NO NEED! You look beautiful the way you are ;) He always charm me with his words :) And I know he means every single word he says.
Yeah but I need to listen to my heart as well. Hmm hmm should I or should I not??? Ok, i'll leave it to my hair dresser to advise me ;) Hehee.. (who ofcourse will agree with me!) Well, the thing that I like about my hair dresser is that he is not overtly profit-oriented, like most hair dressers do, he would give the best advise depending on the condition. I believe so.
I have this stupid habit - to pull my hair when I'm thinking/reading, basically when my hand is free. The consequence..my hair drops even more! I really need to kick myself for doing that but sometimes I couldnt help it. Sometimes I did it subconsciously and someone had to tell me off. My colleagues noticed that. Hmm someone gotta tie my hands when they're free :( Bad bad habit.
Lately I couldnt sleep too well. Took a while to fall asleep. Sometimes it seemed like my mind was awake but I was physically sleeping. I can't describe, I felt so drained up the next day. Yikes!
Sis just told me she's only coming back on 26th Oct. She's extending her stay in Redang to join in a diving project. happy for her but means that we're seeing her later. So nice to have someone to buy her the air tix but hrm, why so nice of him..?
Not tired but I should try sleeping. My mind is kinda disoriented now.
Anyway, glad that it's a Pub Hol tomorrow! :)
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Dealing with change
Sitting at home and listening to some music. Some time to chill out, had been really busy for the past one month plus. Baby is not around for 2 weeks, I'm so bored.
Was shocked after receiving 3 pieces of news in the office yesterday. Two of my colleagues will be leaving in September. Felt kinda sad hearing that. Another change will be the no-go with the merging plan which was supposed to take place effect in Oct. I felt somewhat glad with this one. when the news of merging came about, I wasn't very receptive though externally I appeared ok. Nonetheless, I kept telling myself to look at a bigger picture and should embrace what comes about, it's life. After I had been psyching myself for so long, I thought it was gonna happen, or rather I took it as we had merged. Technically we were. Hearing this now somehow gave me a feeling of relief. I could sound selfish thinking this way, but I was pretty sure there are some people who felt the same way. Anyway, we are back to our normal self. Things still go on well and we did not lose that much. Though, I felt really sorry for Nat-nat who had suffered unnecessary pressure due to that. I agree with her that this is a good lesson for all of us. Open communication is really important. if we had communicated enough...
Well, I believe everything happens for a reason. There must be a good one behind all these. Perhaps something better is coming our way :) Really, being here has brought me from a person who loves to see the negative side of things to a more positive me now. I'm really glad :)
I love to reflect. It makes me see how much I've grown and it makes happy realising good improvements in myself. I'm thankful being in the environment I am now and with some great people around me, I feel blessed. Mhmmmmm...I really really miss my baby :(
Was shocked after receiving 3 pieces of news in the office yesterday. Two of my colleagues will be leaving in September. Felt kinda sad hearing that. Another change will be the no-go with the merging plan which was supposed to take place effect in Oct. I felt somewhat glad with this one. when the news of merging came about, I wasn't very receptive though externally I appeared ok. Nonetheless, I kept telling myself to look at a bigger picture and should embrace what comes about, it's life. After I had been psyching myself for so long, I thought it was gonna happen, or rather I took it as we had merged. Technically we were. Hearing this now somehow gave me a feeling of relief. I could sound selfish thinking this way, but I was pretty sure there are some people who felt the same way. Anyway, we are back to our normal self. Things still go on well and we did not lose that much. Though, I felt really sorry for Nat-nat who had suffered unnecessary pressure due to that. I agree with her that this is a good lesson for all of us. Open communication is really important. if we had communicated enough...
Well, I believe everything happens for a reason. There must be a good one behind all these. Perhaps something better is coming our way :) Really, being here has brought me from a person who loves to see the negative side of things to a more positive me now. I'm really glad :)
I love to reflect. It makes me see how much I've grown and it makes happy realising good improvements in myself. I'm thankful being in the environment I am now and with some great people around me, I feel blessed. Mhmmmmm...I really really miss my baby :(
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Humiliated!
I had never felt this humiliated ever in my life before! I was almost being screamed in the public and it made looked as if i was a difficult and inconsiderate patient. I went to consult a doctor last Sat and was prescribed an antibiotic. I took and caused me purging a day after taking it and it went on for 2 and half days! And I had to visit the toilet for as many as 6-7x a day. For 2 days and more! I started to suspect the cause was due to the medicine and so i went on the net to check. I learn that some antibiotics could cause diarrhea in some people and it's some form of allergy. Immediately I called up the medical centre to ask and I was told to go back to check. I stopped consuming after I found out and I was worried of the side effects as I understood that antibiotic course must be completed. The reason being, your body will developed the immunity towards the specific virus/bacteria triggered by the antibiotic for the virus/bacteria. If you do not complete the prescribed course of antibiotic, the immunity will not be developed fully and if there is recurrence, the medicine will not help.
I was charged for trying to find out about the medicine which i thought was unfair. Why was being charged when they gave me the problem in the first place? I was only there to resolve. The nurse insisted for me to pay and I was made to look like someone who was unwilling to pay for using their service. I hadnt complain about them prescribing without giving me full information and I was already made to look this way! I insisted and tried to reason but it was unheard. It became heated and I couldnt take it and I raised my voice too, showing my dissatisfaction. Everybody was looking at me. At that instant, I felt so disgraced and wanted to leave and hide. So I told her, fine I will pay but I am not satisfied with the serivce here. It is really poor, I exclaimed. Finally, she said, fine just go. It was as if I was shooed. She said that she hasnt seen a difficult patient like me who did not want to pay for the service I used. I was so so humiliated!!!!
I left and broke into tears outside the building. My parents arrived and saw me crying alone and wondered what was wrong. Only after that, she said she thought I was robbed or something. After I told them about the incident, my mom wanted to rush in to give a piece of her mind to the nurse. I had to stop her and she insisted to run in. I had to scream my head off to stop her and told her we should just leave. There is no point and it would just make it uglier.
I was very upset and angry. I couldn't believe I'd be involved in such heated argument in the public. Nobody would ever imagine me being in such a situation given my nature. I was surprised myself..
:( I wished he was here
I was charged for trying to find out about the medicine which i thought was unfair. Why was being charged when they gave me the problem in the first place? I was only there to resolve. The nurse insisted for me to pay and I was made to look like someone who was unwilling to pay for using their service. I hadnt complain about them prescribing without giving me full information and I was already made to look this way! I insisted and tried to reason but it was unheard. It became heated and I couldnt take it and I raised my voice too, showing my dissatisfaction. Everybody was looking at me. At that instant, I felt so disgraced and wanted to leave and hide. So I told her, fine I will pay but I am not satisfied with the serivce here. It is really poor, I exclaimed. Finally, she said, fine just go. It was as if I was shooed. She said that she hasnt seen a difficult patient like me who did not want to pay for the service I used. I was so so humiliated!!!!
I left and broke into tears outside the building. My parents arrived and saw me crying alone and wondered what was wrong. Only after that, she said she thought I was robbed or something. After I told them about the incident, my mom wanted to rush in to give a piece of her mind to the nurse. I had to stop her and she insisted to run in. I had to scream my head off to stop her and told her we should just leave. There is no point and it would just make it uglier.
I was very upset and angry. I couldn't believe I'd be involved in such heated argument in the public. Nobody would ever imagine me being in such a situation given my nature. I was surprised myself..
:( I wished he was here
Friday, August 14, 2009
Just not good
It's a n ugly ugly world we live in with swarms of ugly people everywhere! we have barbarians taking the train and we have even more barbaric politicians screwing the people. I had a sudden hatred for human beings and the world. I was almost crushed in the train and the idiots were so merciless. I wonder where is their sanity.
Weekend - work work work. like it or not
stupid knees not helping me either
I think it's the time of the month again that I feel so agitated. I still need to finish my work by Monday Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmm
Weekend - work work work. like it or not
stupid knees not helping me either
I think it's the time of the month again that I feel so agitated. I still need to finish my work by Monday Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmm
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