tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16692062768640389222024-02-19T21:05:04.984+08:00The Thorns & RosesYou can't always have roses without the thornsLi_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-32513959319084227182011-04-01T22:08:00.003+08:002011-04-01T23:33:39.929+08:00It's been a journey...<span class="Apple-style-span">Wow..it's been a long time I had something posted here. And it's been a journey, I must say. Been through some elements of life that one would typically face as part of the cycle. Went through quite a fair bit of ...what you call it? Change? Experience? The most significant encounter since the last entry was..actually the loss of people who were dear to me. 2 in less a week's time. Nothing could be as awful as that and that was a thoroughly painful process. I don't want to talk further about it, I just want to move on. It was a traumatic period and I was really depressed by that. Anyway, I had to take it that it was all part of the plan, the plan of a magnificent power who controls the earth. I couldn't say anything more even though I strongly disagree.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">The next intense experience I am going through is about...work. my work. I have been in this consulting biz for about 2.5 years since I graduated. Learning curve was steep. I was put to manage very intense workload and responsibilities. They have almost tripled since Sept '10. I learnt things I never thought I would at this level. I am doing things that most people of my level wouldn't have started doing. I was literally pushed to adapt to these new situations, new things. I must say my learning agility has started to develop a little and my ability to multi task should have improved by now. I felt like I was doing a million things at one time. Oh well, that could never be compared to my boss's plate, if mine was a million, hers would be a billion. I always think I am an octopus. Learning to manage superior was one of the new exp. </span>Am still trying to find my ways around it. Not something you can learn overnight, it's an art. I want to be able to develop this. </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">Haah..if you ask me if I enjoy my work. Yes, I'd say I do. I like the industry, I like it being specialised. I like how professional the profession is. Certain things I love doing more than others. Because of the intense experience, I could see my strengths and my gaps quite well now. So, that is a good thing. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">I work really hard now. There is not a single day now that I can sit around and do things at my preferred pace. I cannot go to gym in the evening during weekdays anymore. I even have to work late nights most of the time. I must say I can do this no problem because of my task orientation. But lately, it had started to prompt me to ponder. Why do I work so hard? yes, part of me striving to deliver what I have committed to, but really, what am making myself to work so hard? I could probably take a more laid back job but I want that neither. Do I want to do this for long run? I'd say no. I'd feel burnout. So, probably this is something that I need to bring to discuss. It's tough because you know they need that support and have kinda expected of you especially if there is so much trust given. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">Well, as I started to ask these questions within myself, came a change outta sudden that have kinda put these to rest for now. Our company has been acquired by a larger consulting co who provides more HR services to clients. I suppose the change came about the right time. I am quite excited with this new change. Hopefully there are more opportunities for growth and to learn different things. Let's see how things progress :) Our new career journey started just today. No April's fool. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">I must say I am very grateful having the boss I have who is also a mentor and friend to me. she is like a big sister to me who cares and really help me through my career journey. I have never imagined one could have so much trust and faith in me besides of course your family. She has SO much of that in me that I really feel honored. I guess she is the main factor that has kept me here in this job. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">Ahh, I need to get some work done before sleep. feeling tired already. And I wish to head to bed earlier tonight after many nights of OT.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">Chao chao!</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-87601197026959277172010-01-23T13:10:00.002+08:002010-01-23T13:19:09.323+08:00A lovely morningWaking up on a peaceful morning in Penang and feeling the soft sun rays by the window is simply awesome. Am laying on the couch, enjoying the blissful moments. Just felt like documenting the feeling.<br />It's our 2nd year anniversary today. Sadly, that poor little baby isnt feeling so well. Maybe some massage would help...Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-36023437299703030002010-01-01T13:29:00.003+08:002010-01-01T22:53:43.574+08:00It's 01-01-10 today!Happy New Year! It's 2010 now! Wowiee! :D<br /><br />Just had my dinner. Chilling in the peaceful living hall trying to put down some thoughts and memories of year 2009 in words. Would be a memorable piece of story for my reading 10 years down the road.<br /><br /><br />Year 2009 has been a great year to me. It was a year of discovery and learning. The most significant thing that took place this year was me stepping into the working world. I've been a year and 2 months in my job as a HR Consultant and everyday was a new day for me. Technically speaking, I started this job in May 08 as an intern and only officially joined in Nov 08. One of the role that I play in this job is assessing people. Assessing people if they are the right fit for a particular position. I have been assessing myself while I did on others. Through this, I actually discovered a lot about myself - my positive attributes as well as the not so positive ones. I became more aware and pushed myself to build those areas I lacked. Besides that, I have a fantastic mentor at work and I'd say she is the most amazing boss and person I know. She taught me a lot and is constantly developing me in every way that she could. She does the same for the rest of us in the company. She is awesome! :) <br /><br />So yes, I had great experience at work and I enjoyed doing what I was doing. 2009 with family was also good. I managed to organise a small family trip to Penang during the CNY break. I was glad to see everyone enjoyed themselves. My parents deserved a break. I couldnt afford overseas trip yet but I really wish to bring them all to some place nice outside the country one day. Meanwhile, we could probably do a Cameron trip this year??? ;) <br /><br /><br />2009 with my Baby was awesome. Baby finally graduated and started a temporary job while waiting for his application with a tele company to go through. It would be somewhere in Feb this year. Baby moved into the same apartment that I'm currently living in and we've been seeing each other almost every day! :) I also travelled to Penang more often. We went back almost once a month. I enjoyed every trip back, they were so relaxing. It was almost like an escapade, away from the busy KL. Another significant event this year was that I ate a lot more compared to the previous years. It was becasue of him! ;) We both love to eat and I enjoyed the buffets we went and the food in Penang. That was why I had to work out harder in the gym to maintain my body. Otherwise I could not imagine... <br /><br />Last night, we made a NY resolution together. We will spend our time doing more reading this year. He suggested we spend the night time in the weekdays to read some books. I love the idea! :) I've always wanted to kick start the habit again. Left it after Form 6. We've also made a resolution to save more money so that we can go for travelling together. Eeee I can't wait till that day!!! (I know you're ON it babeh! ;p)<br /><br />2009 and my health wasnt so good. I suffered from knee pain and hair loss. My knee pain was caused by my intense work out in the gym and the lack of stretching. The muscles on my thighs have tighten and shrunk. Once it shrunk, the thigh muscle actually shortened and eventually pulled the knee cap upwards. This then caused the aching when there was strenous leg movements. I reduced my work out intensity a lot. I had to sacrifice step, one of my favourite activity in the gym. I had completely stopped. I also stopped running :( It was quite depressing as I could only do light activities which did not help to burn the calories. I ate the same quantity of food daily and the amount of exercise was cut down so much. I was worried that I'd put on weight. I did put on 1-2 kgs but thankfully it was manageable. For treatment, I consulted a chiropractor. He is Dr Green who owns this small centre in Brickfields. Apparently he was known to cure many people and in fact, a lot of the gym freaks know about him. I found out that most gym frequenters actually suffer from some muscle/bone problems after being too active in the gym. I was then thinking perhaps one should start a gym routine at all coz as you do, you'd risk yourself more than anyone. Almost everybody I know in the gym have some kind of pain somewhere. Isn't it a sad fact? Aren't we supposed to be healthier? back to the doc, I went for some needling treatment on my thighs. It was the most horrible pain I'd ever felt. I know I may sound a little exaggerating. Perhaps it was my low threshold that exaggerated the pain. I was literally screaming and crying in pain in the doc's room. I couldnt stop crying even after it was done. Yes, I might have looked like a crying baby but you have no idea how it felt. And I thought it was also becasue I was caught totally off guard. Dr Green didnt explain to me beforehand and just told me to lie down. Then he said he was going to put the needle into my thigh. I was like.."WTF??" He started off by poking the needle (it was thicker than the acupunture needles!) and then wiggled and wiggled. Argh! The thought of it makes me shudder. I dreaded the second treatment which was only 2 weeks after the first. I wanted to call it off until the last minute I braved myself for a second try. When I was there, I was told to meet his wife instead. I breathed a huge relieve hearing that because she doesnt use needlees. She mainly do it in a massaging way. The second treatment went fine, not much pain involved. She basically used her strong thumbs to press on the trigger points to unblock the blocked capillaries and improved the blood circulation. She taught me some exercise movements to strenthen my inner thigh muscle so that I didnt need to put too much pressure on my outer thigh muscle. I was also advised to strecth my thighs (by pulling one side of your leg backwards where your heels are supposed to touch your buttock) as often as I could throughout the day. I was also made to buy a pair of orthondics sole and another pair of orthontics slipper. They wer not cheap!! The soles were supposed to give the arch support for my feet and align the leg bones. I also discovered that I was flat-footed! According to him and I also did some research through the internet, it is common. Basically our feet have little arch compared to normal feet and hence the name. People like us are not supposed to run because heavy leg movements (without the arch support) will hurt our bones, muscles and nerves. So after the second treatment, I actually felt better when I walked up and down the stairs. <br />My hair loss problem is more depressing to me. I couldnt find a proper treatment with reasonable cost. Places like Svenson, Yun Nam and what not would cost me a bomb and they are not guaranteed for success. Sigh... It really was stressful to find lumps of hair each time I washed them. It still is... I've been trying the tonics and hair loss shampoo. I'm not sure if they'll work. i feel kinda hopeless.. :(<br /><br />Anyhow, that was my 2009 in a nutshell. I hope this year will be a good good year. I wish for a better health for everyone and all to have good year ahead. <br /><br />Happy 2010! :) <br /><br />LSLi_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-26125160536399606302009-10-25T22:25:00.002+08:002009-10-25T22:48:24.979+08:00ups and downs26th October. I could still reminisce the farewell morning at the Subang airport 6 months ago. Sending sis away. I still remember my hot tears rolling down my cheeks on my way home from the airport. I am very bad at farewell. Yeay, She's coming back, TOMORROW!!! Time flies so fast. Glad that she enjoyed herself there :) Looking forward to tomorrow night! <br /><br />27Oct - Dad's birthday. I gave him the watch today. Too bad there was no surprise, Mom has shown him before. We will go for a dinner in the weekend :) with sis and bro around. To the famous and yummy pork leg restaurant. <br /><br /><br />I start to feel depressed whenever thinking about my hair loss. I felt like I have lost half of the amount I used to have. It's so,so,so upsetting. And I dont know how to control it. Everytime as I wash my hair, there'll be a ball of hair clumped together on the bathroom floor. Can you imagine they drop so fast but growth is so slow? It feels almost hopeless thinking of this. I have started using mild shampoo, hair loss lotion and wash very thoroughly each time. I even shampoo twice at one time. I dont know what else to do. I even had it trimmed shorter. <br />Yun Nam? Svenson? They are so expensive and not guaranteed. Sigh :( <br /><br />Not just my hair giving me stress, my knees too. I recently went to consult a chiropractic doc and found that I am flat-footed which have somewhat affected the way my feet move and make the knees more prone to damage. I was advised to wear the orthontics, whenever I have my feet moving on the ground. They were so pricey but I would rather treat with this than needling. The orthontics are said to align my feet and the bone/nerve and give the right support when I walk. Hopefully they really work. <br /><br />I', such a troublesome girl. I'm only 24 ;(Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-66687137634645607382009-09-01T21:49:00.004+08:002009-09-01T23:10:56.069+08:00I'm such an 'F'!<span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">On a Tuesday morning, the first working day of the week, it started off so gloomy. Cold and dark. It affected the mood so much. I felt as though I was alone. Although I have my 'new' hair but i didn't feel so excited. I would usually be excited using or having something new. Being the 'F' that I am, weather does affect my mood. Plus I think I am extroverted F. It does help to understand people and myself better by knowing the types. And being the 'I' with my affected mood today, I became the extreme 'I'. Totally not in the mood to say things and responded only for the sake of responding and out of courtesy. I just learnt something new today, well actually not new but I didnt really take note of this earlier, that a person would act the total opposite of his/her own type but in a poor condition when the person is being put under depression. For example, an ISFJ would behave like an ENTP but at its worst when he/she lost the grip. Meaning to say, the J who always is so organised and structured would be a P who does things in a super unstructured and messy way (they are unorganised as it is) when the J is stressed out. An original P is someone who can adapt quickly to changes and are flexible. They can be unorganised in their communication, flow of thoughts and even in their decisions but that's the way they are. They can say 10 million things but may not all be formalised. So, you can imagine a stressed J to behave like a P but in a total messy manner. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Sometimes it's quite fun to type others especially people around me. I think my sis is an INTP, not too sure about the 'N' and 'T' but I'm very sure about the 'I' and somewhat certain about the 'P'. Why a P? Coz she is an unorganised person and her things are everywhere in the room! Wait till she gets home, the room basically is loaded with her stuff. and worst thing is, they're all over the place! And it gets on me all the time. Well, having said that, the best thing about Ps is that, even though they are all over the place, they know where to find their stuff. Isn't that amazing?! Another good indication of a P person is their desktop or inbox. Ps tend to leave their mails unchecked in the inbox and their desktop is filled with folders all over the screen. Man, she would glare at me if she was here ee..scary berry!*shiver* ;P </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">My mom is definately a P!! No doubt about it! Look at her room and kitchen. A confirmed and true P! I guess my first bro is a P too. I suppose my dad, my youngest bro and myself are Js in the family. My dad cleans up my mom's mess in the kitchen every time after her cooking. So J. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Indications of a J person are - you can find they are generally neat, organised in the way they keep things and dressed up, some even go to the extremes of color or pattern matching. SJ men tend to dress up well and some even with matching ties. Really! Besides that, J CANNOT leave their mails sitting unchecked in the inbox. They either be read or clicked at even though they are not read yet, just so they don't look like unchecked! You can also find their desktops are very much tidier with folders that are named appropriately and nicely organised. In J speech pattern, they normally speak in a clear and structured manner to the extent that you can almost predict what will be said next. Js typically conclude their speech while Ps tend to leave it open. If a true J speaks, it normally would go like, "this is so and so, that is so and so and THEREFORE it is such. This is the typical speech pattern of a true J. A typical P would say things like, " yeah, we can do this. we can also that. Oh, that one is also good" and they tend to leave it open like that. But a J would usually conclude by saying, "Yeah, all sounds good but we should be doing this.' </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">However, there is no good or bad for a certain type. A J may be very structured but because of the favour for structures, they tend to adapt rather slowly to changes and may stumble if not handled well. On the other hand, a P who is always open for possibilites is more adept to changes and they may fare better than J in such situations. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">See, the MBTI type is fun and it's a good knowledge to have to help us understand people better. Now that I know my Mom is a P and she is being herself, I can't be too upset about her disorganised behaviour. So is my sis, I can't scream at her too often for leaving her stuff everywhere in the room. (hmm but she can't take it for granted though!) Nevertheless, they need to learn to keep things at least in place, if not neater. Just as I need to learn to flex better. :) Cool right? </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Hmm how did this topic started?? </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">Oh yeah, my F. Oh it's super extraverted now. Would tomorrow be less gloomy? :s I should probably go to bed soon. I has comfy bed :) </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">It feels lot better now :) </span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-82587345379939124252009-08-31T23:19:00.003+08:002009-08-31T23:21:58.972+08:00The green monsterJust a little disoriented and uneasyyy.. :(<br /><br />Not so enthusiatic about end of 31 Aug now.Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-17872100371996581012009-08-30T23:50:00.003+08:002009-08-31T00:16:39.697+08:00Merdeka, yay PH!<span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">It's end of August, the Merdeka day and a public hol, yoohoo! I'm working on a long weekend though. Not so excited after all... Oooo I can hear fireworks outside, 5mins past 12.</span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">What I'm gonna do tomorrow? Getting a hair cut and see what else I can do with my hair. My crown that makes me look like a crazy woman. I wish to get it permed again but not too sure if it's best to be done now, considering its condition. Hrmmm... Plus, my hair thinning problem is getting on me now. It's not gonna help if I do more harm to it, but what I can't take this either. If hunn was here, he'd probably say NO NEED! You look beautiful the way you are ;) He always charm me with his words :) And I know he means every single word he says. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">Yeah but I need to listen to my heart as well. Hmm hmm should I or should I not??? Ok, i'll leave it to my hair dresser to advise me ;) Hehee.. (who ofcourse will agree with me!) Well, the thing that I like about my hair dresser is that he is not overtly profit-oriented, like most hair dressers do, he would give the best advise depending on the condition. I believe so. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">I have this stupid habit - to pull my hair when I'm thinking/reading, basically when my hand is free. The consequence..my hair drops even more! I really need to kick myself for doing that but sometimes I couldnt help it. Sometimes I did it subconsciously and someone had to tell me off. My colleagues noticed that. Hmm someone gotta tie my hands when they're free :( Bad bad habit. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">Lately I couldnt sleep too well. Took a while to fall asleep. Sometimes it seemed like my mind was awake but I was physically sleeping. I can't describe, I felt so drained up the next day. Yikes! </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">Sis just told me she's only coming back on 26th Oct. She's extending her stay in Redang to join in a diving project. happy for her but means that we're seeing her later. So nice to have someone to buy her the air tix but hrm, why so nice of him..? </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">Not tired but I should try sleeping. My mind is kinda disoriented now. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">Anyway, glad that it's a Pub Hol tomorrow! :) </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;"></span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-75164860198111008062009-08-26T22:32:00.003+08:002009-08-26T22:56:57.128+08:00Dealing with changeSitting at home and listening to some music. Some time to chill out, had been really busy for the past one month plus. Baby is not around for 2 weeks, I'm so bored. <br /><br />Was shocked after receiving 3 pieces of news in the office yesterday. Two of my colleagues will be leaving in September. Felt kinda sad hearing that. Another change will be the no-go with the merging plan which was supposed to take place effect in Oct. I felt somewhat glad with this one. when the news of merging came about, I wasn't very receptive though externally I appeared ok. Nonetheless, I kept telling myself to look at a bigger picture and should embrace what comes about, it's life. After I had been psyching myself for so long, I thought it was gonna happen, or rather I took it as we had merged. Technically we were. Hearing this now somehow gave me a feeling of relief. I could sound selfish thinking this way, but I was pretty sure there are some people who felt the same way. Anyway, we are back to our normal self. Things still go on well and we did not lose that much. Though, I felt really sorry for Nat-nat who had suffered unnecessary pressure due to that. I agree with her that this is a good lesson for all of us. Open communication is really important. if we had communicated enough...<br />Well, I believe everything happens for a reason. There must be a good one behind all these. Perhaps something better is coming our way :) Really, being here has brought me from a person who loves to see the negative side of things to a more positive me now. I'm really glad :)<br /><br />I love to reflect. It makes me see how much I've grown and it makes happy realising good improvements in myself. I'm thankful being in the environment I am now and with some great people around me, I feel blessed. Mhmmmmm...I really really miss my baby :(Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-28359780382514997122009-08-20T22:24:00.002+08:002009-08-20T23:38:52.805+08:00Humiliated!I had never felt this humiliated ever in my life before! I was almost being screamed in the public and it made looked as if i was a difficult and inconsiderate patient. I went to consult a doctor last Sat and was prescribed an antibiotic. I took and caused me purging a day after taking it and it went on for 2 and half days! And I had to visit the toilet for as many as 6-7x a day. For 2 days and more! I started to suspect the cause was due to the medicine and so i went on the net to check. I learn that some antibiotics could cause diarrhea in some people and it's some form of allergy. Immediately I called up the medical centre to ask and I was told to go back to check. I stopped consuming after I found out and I was worried of the side effects as I understood that antibiotic course must be completed. The reason being, your body will developed the immunity towards the specific virus/bacteria triggered by the antibiotic for the virus/bacteria. If you do not complete the prescribed course of antibiotic, the immunity will not be developed fully and if there is recurrence, the medicine will not help. <br /><br />I was charged for trying to find out about the medicine which i thought was unfair. Why was being charged when they gave me the problem in the first place? I was only there to resolve. The nurse insisted for me to pay and I was made to look like someone who was unwilling to pay for using their service. I hadnt complain about them prescribing without giving me full information and I was already made to look this way! I insisted and tried to reason but it was unheard. It became heated and I couldnt take it and I raised my voice too, showing my dissatisfaction. Everybody was looking at me. At that instant, I felt so disgraced and wanted to leave and hide. So I told her, fine I will pay but I am not satisfied with the serivce here. It is really poor, I exclaimed. Finally, she said, fine just go. It was as if I was shooed. She said that she hasnt seen a difficult patient like me who did not want to pay for the service I used. I was so so humiliated!!!!<br /><br />I left and broke into tears outside the building. My parents arrived and saw me crying alone and wondered what was wrong. Only after that, she said she thought I was robbed or something. After I told them about the incident, my mom wanted to rush in to give a piece of her mind to the nurse. I had to stop her and she insisted to run in. I had to scream my head off to stop her and told her we should just leave. There is no point and it would just make it uglier. <br /><br />I was very upset and angry. I couldn't believe I'd be involved in such heated argument in the public. Nobody would ever imagine me being in such a situation given my nature. I was surprised myself..<br /><br />:( I wished he was hereLi_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-22178925637103027522009-08-14T23:39:00.004+08:002009-08-15T00:19:07.723+08:00Just not goodIt's a n ugly ugly world we live in with swarms of ugly people everywhere! we have barbarians taking the train and we have even more barbaric politicians screwing the people. I had a sudden hatred for human beings and the world. I was almost crushed in the train and the idiots were so merciless. I wonder where is their sanity.<br /><br />Weekend - work work work. like it or not<br /><br />stupid knees not helping me either<br /><br />I think it's the time of the month again that I feel so agitated. I still need to finish my work by Monday Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmLi_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-66452059393813954212009-08-12T00:08:00.004+08:002009-08-12T00:41:03.528+08:00LS turning 24It's the month of August, my birthday month! :D Food, lotsa cakes (4!), lotsa ice-cream and presie, sweet!. Dinner @ Jogoya was not bad, pigged out on the ice-creams *slurrps* The eating time was rather short though. Had always wanted to try all this while. Was fun to watch Baby enjoying the food. He didnt even have time to layan me ;p <br />Met up with uni and high sch friends too. A supposed to be surprise tak jadi ;p I must say my planning was better than Baby's. It was enjoyable though ;)<br />Love the handbag ;) but I felt rather sad that he had to spend so much on me :x<br /><br />LS --> 24?!! Oh man!<br /><br />***********************************************************************************<br /><br />Tomorrow is Baby's convocation day. I'll be on leave and will go with him to pick up his Mom in the airport. yeay, a good chance for me to R&R a little after weeks of AC, scoring, AC and scoring again. haven't finish scoring though but I really need a break. <br /><br />IC 09 is starting, will not be seeing him for the next few weeks. So near yet so far..<br /><br />Now, sleep or score..???Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-1167631297320902422009-07-31T22:22:00.005+08:002009-07-31T22:54:36.129+08:00I Love August<span style="font-family: georgia; color: rgb(153, 51, 153);font-size:85%;" >Here comes August! I love August....!!! :D <br />July passed by moderately fast although it was super busy month. Worked and worked non-stop. hadn't been to the gym for 2 weeks plus, no! My life is only revolving around work, gym, home, and my baby:) This month was almost out of of touch with friends. I still am enjoying my work though. It was nice when we all travelled to SG and Bintan together. and few of us to Penang together, was enjoyable. although it was for work. still lots to do, need to continue staying up late tonight..<br /><br />The last day of the month usually ends with exciting feelling, welcoming the new month - new beginning (again!) but today was one of the suckiest day. I could not forgive myself for the mistake i'd done. It could have been avoided if...i dont't know. It just could. arh.. I really hate myself for taking things so seriously..toooo overly serious..I couldnt help it to not think about it. And i hate for being a crying baby. It just doesn't contain! And i ended up looking so ugly:(<br />At times like this, all i need is just a warm cozy hug and someone to say, "dont worry, it'll be ok". And it was as if it has been heard. Came 2 wonderful people that sort of lifted me up and it was unexpected at all. I couldnt be any happier. They were simply heaven-sent. One being the person I admire and look up to while another one being the person I love the most. My baby is the sweetest baby in the world and i know for sure he'll be there for me, i could not ask for more :) ..I just mentioned, it doesn't contain!<br /><br />Looking forward to Sunday. Flying off to Penang and coming back on Thurs. <br />Now, back to work, work, work. Yeay, it's August already! :D It's MY month :D<br /><br /><br /></span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-21619095431815801722009-06-26T21:11:00.004+08:002009-06-26T22:32:34.699+08:00July,July,July :)<span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">Back at home. Self-quarantine :( Was supposed to be in the gym, shop at MNG and to ruben's but am just so tired that i needed to come home after work. I guess the internal battling had used up my energy. I hope the antibody has built up by now. Went for a flu vaccinatin yesterday and my parents beleived that was the swine flu vaccination *hmm*. Vaccination is injection of the viral strain and cause the body to produce natural antibody as the strain reacts in the body. Thus boosting the immunity of our body. Will rest early tonight and hopefully the energy recovers tomorrow. I need to work out! Shucks, i think i've become an exercisoholic. I just won't feel right if I don't and worried that I'll put on soon. I know this isn't healthy and it's not like I'm FAT but...I really get depressed if i do so i'm trying all my best to avoid that. Yet i love food. To top it up, the sweet and sinful ones are the most I consume. Anyways...the chances to maintain is still there as long as I'm diligent enough to attend the gym plus watching the diet.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">Today was a big day for us in the office. it was the day for us to find out about the project status. Guess what, we WON!!!! which means it's gonna be busy busy July! :D So exciting! Yup, lotsa work and late night work. Not sure abt our away day though. As much as I'm looking forward to it, I'm exciting abt the project as well. Would be awesome if we could squeeze them all in this month. Not to forget about other projects. Wee! so glad to be part of this amazing team:) </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">Was also thinking of picking up some dancing skills but looks like it'll take me sometime to start realising them. Was thinking to start looking for a good and reasonable-priced belly dancing lesson. Am keen to learn the moves. I've always love to watch people dance so gracefully and wish myself to be as good as that or at least knowing the basic moves ;) have been to some classess but they weren't the thorough teaching ones so didn't learn in a proper manner. oh and Im actually keen on learning salsa too. Need a partner to go with as companion and motivater as well but... no actionyet :( </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;"></span><br />People. Characteristic. Behaviour. Attitude. Courtesy<br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">As much as I'm trying to understand people's behaviour, adapt and tolerating others, sometimes there are instances that are kinda frustrating and you'll think that is too much, that you can't take it anymore. Well, I found that myself is not very keen on tolerating ppl with too strong character. Strong here meaning someone who typically is dominating, assertive, less likely listen to others and always trying to push his/her believe/views and thinking that other's are not right. Someone who will always say that "No, this is not right, How can?!, Aiya bullshit la, I think ar..., ahhh it's just kinda painful to my ears. Often, i'd be not infavor to talk when that happens. Sometimes arguing it back makes me feel better but I dont always do because i'd be so put off. If we don't argue back our views, w are actually allowing the dominance even more. I wish I could say things like " hey com'on la, it's not always what you say is right. But i must get my facts rigth before I do. Sometimes, i think ppl can be a little more pleasant to at least be a bit softer in their approach in giving their opinion. Oh and one more thing that i hate is people with super high egoism. If not super, high. I think they are annoying. Ego=overly high confidence. Too high that it could reach the sky. These type of ppl can lose faith but never 'face'. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">Sounds like I hate so many ppl. Well, no actually. I'm just saying as I think. Imagine one person to display these characteristics, can be so sickening. No, i'm not a hater, just some encounter with unpleasant people that made me realise the kind of character in ppl that can really put me off. In these instances, i'll jsut go with my 'whatever' attitude. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#996633;">it's Saturday tomorrow. Likely to be out whole day:) ooo ooo gotta rest soon. Hopefully I'll get good sleep tonight...</span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-92087065702525948232009-06-11T23:35:00.005+08:002009-06-12T00:35:37.296+08:00Wow wow wow<span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">WoUu! It felt like I was jsut being slapped on the face. Just found out about an ex-school mate of mine is now a Manager in a huge japan based company! At the age of 23! That was amazingly fast! What am I doing here?!! No, no I didn't mean it's impossible but to reach to that level especially in big companies, you need experience apart from the required competencies. Well we could say that she started earlier when the rest of us just entered uni and hence moved up faster, but i seriously didn't think that was it. I don't know her very well but I definately know how intelligent she is and her strong personality has absolutely played a big part to lead to her position now. She is someone that most people would aspire to be. Seriously amazing! </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">And this bit of the story tells that, really, nothing is impossible. I was wow-ing non-stop looking at the video and photos. What an inspiring news! :) </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">I must really look into building my base stronger and work things doubly hard now. Heheh Kiasu kiasu. No, but i really felt inspired! :D Hmm hmm speaking of which, there is a whole new set of challenges at work laying ahead of me now. The whole merging and aquisition plan is about to roll out, actually submerging now.. Induction into the new culture and education about the new co have already started a fair bit. I have mixed feelings now. Both excited and melancholic. Excited about the opportunities and at the same time, fear of losing the closeness and our culture. Currently, the culture at our workplace is very open, with lots of personal touch and it is one of the very few companies that truly truly value its people. Our boss has done so well to groom us, giving the right exposure and sufficient amount of attention to EVERYBODY! every single person in the office and very few bosses will ever do this, pretty sure. In here, it is so open that we say what we want to say and there is no pretention at all. No politics, no nonsense. maybe jsut some heated discussion sometimes but we make up to each other after that. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">I keep telling myself now, "Hey girl, grow up!" I guess it's time that we grow out of our comfort shell and face the next challenge. It feels like emerging from childhood into adulthood. Everybody would wish to remain in their kiddohood forever, if given a choice. Coz it's happy and stress-free. All you do is eat-play-eat-play-eat-sleep :) So comfortable and you always have your parents to support all the time. Exactly the same feeling I have at this current stage. So comfy, happy, well-supported, cared for and loved. Of course there are stressful moments but we manage them well, at least i think. So yeah..it's time to grow. I suppose there will be no drastic change for us for at least till end of 09. But realising the fact that in future future, I may not be working directly under Nat, is kinda upsetting. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">What I fear of is to be in a company that treats employee as solely the battle soldiers whom they care for the soldiers to bring in profit and more profits. They would value you but mainly for your skills (coz that will bring them $$$). Silly me. No, no, I'm not saying this organisation we're going in is gonna be like this. NO! and NO WAY too! That's just my silly fear. I do trust Nat in her decision and that she knows what's best for us. I'm sure it's gonna be good :) </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330099;">Mmm haven't heard from my baby yet..better check on him. Nitessssssssss :D</span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-32380521744397490222009-06-09T23:15:00.003+08:002009-06-10T00:08:42.506+08:00100 things about LS ;pTaken from SUe May's FB note<br /><br />WHAT WAS YOUR:<br />1. Last beverage: Orange juice from the real orange<br />2. Last phone call: Baby :)<br />3. Last text message: Baby :)<br />4. Last song you listened to: Some smooth jazz on imeem<br />5. Last time you cried: Last Sunday, not really cried but was teary<br /><br />HAVE YOU EVER:<br />6. Dated someone twice: yes<br />7. Been cheated on: ...<br />8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no<br />9. Lost someone special: no<br />10. Been depressed: yes<br />11. Been drunk and threw up: yes, just last month. In a mamak stall after the drinking session. Pity them<br /><br />LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:<br />12. pink<br />13. violet<br />14. purple<br /><br />THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)<br />15. Made a new friend: yes! :D<br />16. Fallen out of love: nope<br />17. Laughed until you cried: yes! Many times<br />18. Met someone who changed you: Oh YES!!!!<br />19. Found out who your true friends are: yeap<br />20. Found out someone was talking about you: i guess yeah<br />22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: three quarter maybe<br />23. How many kids do you want to have: hrmm 2-3?<br />24. Do you have any pets: i want to keep a pup!!! I even have the name ready. Pokki! unfortunately i can't :(<br />25. Do you want to change your name: nope<br />26. What did you do for your last birthday: had dinner in Toni Roma's and a separate birthday surprise with a group of friends. Also, was my graduation!!<br />27. What time did you wake up today: 7.10am, alarm was 7.05am<br />28. What were you doing at midnight last night: fb-ing, on the phone :)<br />29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Seeing my baby!!!<br />30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2 hrs ago<br />31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Not really<br />32. What are you listening to right now: The fan blowing<br />33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope. Dont think i have friend with that name, i mean their real name.<br />34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing<br />35. Most visited webpage: FB<br />36. What's your real name: PLS<br />37. Nicknames: sum sum, sum, pig (but this i dont agreee!)<br />38. Relationship Status: Single but attached :)<br />39. Zodiac sign: Leo<br />40. Male or female: female<br />41. Primary School: SK BBSP<br />42. Secondary school: SMK BBSP<br />43. College/university: UM<br />44. Hair colour: black, ppl used to say i have real black hair<br />45. Long or short: long and wavy. I assume this referring to hair, as in on the head<br />46. Height: 154cm<br />47. Do you have a crush on someone: Nope but I'm so in lurrrrrvvvvvve:D<br />48. What do you like about yourself: Think of other's feelings before my action<br />49. Piercings: 2 on my left lobe, 3 on right lobe and 1 on the part above the ear canal - dont know what it's called, the soft bone part.<br />50. Tattoos: none. i've low pain tolerance<br />51. Righty or lefty: RIght<br /><br />FIRSTS :<br />52. First surgery: *touch wood* nope<br />53. First piercing: ears<br />54. First best friend: Heidi Rahman, we lost touch :(<br />55. First sport you joined: Badminton<br />56. First vacation: Dont remember what it's called. A place with water and a big prawn thinggy<br />58. First pair of trainers: School shoe?<br /><br />RIGHT NOW<br />59. Eating: too late to eat, but i had krispie kreme for dinner, YUM!<br />60. Drinking: nothing. Had green tea just now to make me feel less guilty ;p<br />61. I'm about to: brush teeth<br />62. Listening to: still the fan blowing and tv sound<br />63. Waiting on: ...<br /><br />YOUR FUTURE :<br />64. Want kids: yeah<br />65. Get Married: yeah<br />66. Career: A Professional<br /><br />WHICH IS BETTER :<br />67. Lips or eyes: eyes<br />68. Hugs or kisses: Smoochies' the best<br />69. Shorter or taller: doesn't matter<br />70. Older or Younger: younger<br />71. Romantic or spontaneous: both<br />72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice personality!<br />73. Sensitive or loud: Loud<br />74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship<br />75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither<br /><br />HAVE YOU EVER :<br />76. Kissed a stranger: nope!<br />77. Drank hard liquor: Yup<br />78. Lost glasses/contacts: Broke glassess once, literally stepped on it<br />79. Sex on first date: No<br />80. Broken someone's heart: One in high sch, one in the gym... But no no I'm not a heart-breaker!<br />82. Been arrested: Never<br />83. Turned someone down: Yes<br />84. Cried when someone died: I'm a crying baby, in most events that involve emotions<br /><br />DO YOU BELIEVE IN:<br />86. Yourself: yes<br />87. Miracles: yes<br />88. Love at first sight: nope. You need to know a person to fall in love with him/her<br />89. Heaven: No idea<br />90. Santa Claus: no<br />91.Kiss on the first date: no<br />92. Angels: ...<br /><br />ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:<br />94. Had more than 1 boyfriend at a time: if it means r/ship boyfriend, NO!<br />95. Did you sing today: nope<br />96. Ever cheated on somebody: maybe yes when i was a kid ;p<br />97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: I'm really happy now and i want to remain as it is now :)))<br />98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: 23 Jan ;)<br />99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Not at all now!<br />100. Posting this as 100 truths: Man, I'm just to free! ;p<br /><br />I shall go brush teeth and wait for a calll beefore to bed. Zzzzzz :)Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-58774311034347935472009-05-28T22:29:00.006+08:002009-05-28T23:43:23.850+08:00Exciting May ;D<span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0); font-family: arial;font-size:85%;" >Darn, here i am munching on my Snickers bar. That 30mins jog just wasnt enough.<br />It's the end of May, so fast. Remembered I was anticipating it so much :D It has been an amazing month overall. Happy happy :D<br /><br />Work, has been quite quiet but will definitely pick up in June. Still has many internal things to do. Boss is super-duper awesome. I was wordless seeing her expressions, totally candid! I'm so happy I actually enjoy work. The work and the people are great. Sounds like there are new challenges and opportunities ahead, so exciting! Man, i am so glad i left lab. I'd have no idea what i'd go through. Next week is our team meet and there are some activities lined up for us. Ooo so exciting! :D<br /><br />Family, hmm sis is away, missing her :( Glad to hear that she had some fun there, at least. Pity her, basically she has ntg much to do after dinner and mostly sleep till the next morning. Ooo she said there are sheeps in the island! How interesting! But they're dirty ;p Baa baa black sheep?! Everyone else is good. Was so mad at my brother last night, such an irresponsible spoilt kid! He swept the broken glass, not to the dustpan but to the side of the floor!!! and he ignored me completely when i sounded him!! AH! Must really give him a good lesson one day!<br /><br />Lovie dovie, May's a special month, it's my baby's birthday month! :) He's 24 now! May not look/act like one, can be quite a baby sometimes :) I had these brithday surprises all planned out and they took off so well, at least I think they did! :D He was really happy and I was even more happier seeing him *big big smile* I got him a really beautiful jacket and it looks sooo goood on him! We had a romantic dinner on his bday eve in a place called the COurtyard's Garden in Jln Dungun. The ambience was lovely and there were few tables and it was just nice for us. There was a band playing that night and so happened they were there. cos they fit in jsut nice in my plan to surprise him. I could see him looking shy when we all sang the bday song ;D Other than that, the food was so-so. I must say the dessert wasn't that good. I hope it was a memorable night for him as it was for me:) We also had an enjoyable time in the Brussels Cafe on the day of his bday with some of our friends there to surprise him. We got him blindfolded and was guided to walk all the way to the cafe ;p Silly but funny ;p Following from that gathering we have now started a monthly gathering with our uni friends. We had our first dinner in Italiannies in The Curve, was great!:) And we gonna do it every first saturday of the month.<br />Oh, baby is moving to his new place, which is...just in the same building i'm living now! this is so exciting! We spent a weekend to clean and move things. He wasn't so happy though. Worse, he said he felt stressed coming to his place :( Poor baby, I felt upset seeing him in that and couldn't help much. Hopefully, with the mat in place, he wouldn't feel so uncomfortable. Hmm how to make it more homier? Maybe curtain would help ;) or maybe with lots of my photos around??? Yeay! and he invited me to join him to pg next weekend! So looking forward to that! :D<br /><br />Body, lost some weight ;) but the Snicker and dumpling had just kill me. Watching my diet more closely now. Well, research has shown that most women tend to put on weight when they reach 25 due to the lower metabolism as we age. So yeah. Happy on one end, sad at the other. Just realised my hair dropping is getting worse now and it's slightly noticeable *double :(* I used to have really THICK hair and now it's almost twice less than that. You have no idea how much hair u'd see on the bathroom floor after my shower. Mom has been sounding me. You always don't eat rice, sleep late, never take "bou" food etc etc... If this is in the blood, it'd be pretty hard to cure. Both Mom and sis suffer from this too :( SO silly, my hair used to be so thick that i had once wished I had thinner hair and I was so arrogantly thinking that hair dropping was fine as I could afford to. See..you must always be careful of what you wish for!!! Nonetheless, there is still some hope. I shall try taking some zinc and/or folic acid supplements. How could i forget what I learnt in my Biochem classess! Some Ppl always say to me that it is such a waste that you don't work in your field of study but you see knowledge is never a waste. Even though you don't practice doesn't mean it's gonna be useless! They just don't see my point! Anyway.. Now I should conssider if I'd need to seek a physician first before consuming them..? Hmm hmm<br /><br />Shall sleep soon. Looking forward to June!!! Wee! Hopefully more more good times coming my way! :)<br /></span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-63802299749523174202009-05-16T11:14:00.003+08:002009-05-16T11:28:39.669+08:00What to do on a Saturday?<span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;">Woke up on a Sat morning, alone. Missed sis :( Lacks motivation to travel to the gym. Also because of my knees that I'm here. Boring morning, listening to Jason's beautiful mess -cheers up my morning a little. Poor girl, she's so bored over there. Man, it has only been 1 week. </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;">I was running some house chores and got a little frustrated. As I was keeping the dried clothes, the padding for my sports bra jsut went missing. I took it froom the hanger and put its aside to take the others before carrying into the room and i realised it went missing as i was putting them back to origin. I searched around and found ntg! The place is sooo small that there's no way I can't find it. Hmmm! </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;">Hrmm..what to do later in the afternoon...??? </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"></span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-26777788421535447292009-05-09T21:42:00.002+08:002009-05-09T22:19:36.625+08:00I'm gonna miss you dearieSis is leaving tomorrow and bro is merajuk-ing.. :( And i've been feeling unwell since afternoon. I think i'm gonna go to bed soon. Plus, waking up early tomorrow to the airport. I know i won't be able to hold tears when I'm there. She'll be away for 5-6months, kinda long. The last time I sent off to NS in S'wak, i managed to keep my tears but, it felt horrible and took so much energy to do that. I remembered I cried alone in the room for about 30mins when i got home. Shucks, i can feel my cheecks are warm now... Bidding farewell is always very hard for me, especially to people whom I love much Sigh, i always end up looking so embarrased :x<br /><br />Hopefully the pizza and chicky stick have at least digested partially before I sleep. I know someone will be able to cheer me up later :) Ahh ..I can't let her see me now..Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-31505047019515388432009-04-15T23:38:00.005+08:002009-04-15T23:51:58.220+08:00Fatigue and weird achingsI feel very tired lately. Almost every day i woke up feeling tired. Mom commented I look pale. Could it be my sleeping pattern? Or my diet? Or exercise? <br />Only yesterday i had this minor aching on my chest. I thought it was muscle ache. Strange.. Colleagues said it could be wind. And i took 'garlic water', oh yikes! Well the aching really went off the next day. I woke up with it still but only gone in the noon. Just as I was relieved, I'm now feeling ache on my back and tummy's a little pain. Feels like wind. Maybe I am worrying too much...<br />Hmm, I guess I must do something about me looking pale. I agree to the comments too. Actually not just by my mom only, colleagues and some friends thought so too. I guess could be my diet. Perhaps there be more regular veggie consumption. <br /><br />All I ever want is a healthy body as well as for everyone else! I hope I don't get overly stressed with these. Workloads already giving me much of that. <br /><br />...Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-26892140754300453512009-04-09T22:04:00.002+08:002009-04-09T22:38:33.708+08:00~La la laJust passed busy period. More yet to come in this month. In this few months at work, I have actually learnt quite a fair bit of new things and discovered some areas that I like and dislike as well as my strengths and weaknessess. I enjoy being where I am and doing things I do. It's also mainly the people here that has helped enhancing my learning cycle. Guess my maturity level has gone up a level. No more little girl. But well I still have colleague calling me the baby of the team being the youngest. Oh, I have a new colleague today and she is as young. The title will pass on to her :) My interest in this field has grown more and I'm really glad. Although there are time when there's the need to deal with things not of my liking, it does not hinder. The people that I met here are absolutely incredible and different in their own ways which make work a pleasure. And also, through my colleague I found another passion! I found my liking for puppy!! :D Not any pups, only Yorkshire! Sadly, I am unable to keep it, yet :(Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-7595133017289187042009-04-05T18:01:00.002+08:002009-04-05T18:02:29.538+08:00No good, no goodIs so tiredddddddddddddddd and frustratedddddddddddd. Aaaaahhh!!!!Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-85513432886201164152009-02-21T15:58:00.004+08:002009-02-21T16:12:40.454+08:00I am so,so poor!<span style="font-family: arial; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">Something has triggered my mind to start thinking about savings. Realised i'm so poor at the moment. So so poor :( Thinking about my next few years and when i reach 60 with this little savings..hmm it's gonna be awful. I don't wanna end up being a poor old lady, yikes! :S The thought kinda scare me so I made a pledge to myself to start in March and aim to reach my target figure by end of 2009. I should be able to reach ;) But where should I start cutting down..? :O</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 0);"> </span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-8905546366573354862009-02-13T17:55:00.002+08:002009-02-13T18:11:15.107+08:00Just not born to bakeLi Sum lacks cooking/baking talent. ooo such an unfavourable statement to make for myself. <br />Nonetheless, i managed to make something nice :) Mainly assembling work though.<br />Proud with my little achievement (wide smile)Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-12350323391604990572009-02-01T16:18:00.004+08:002009-02-01T17:03:37.904+08:00Joyful CNY :)<span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);font-family:trebuchet ms;" >It's already the 7th day. Happy Birthday to me and everybody! ;D </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);font-family:trebuchet ms;" >I missed the usual gatherings with friends :( Everyone is everywhere this year. No extra ang pows and no gamblings. It is, nevertheless, enjoyable and fun. This CNY is different. It was our first time travelling to Kedah for CNY visit. Had a good one week holiday with family. The time spent was really nice. The last family trip was 7 years back, i think?... Eee too long till I can't even remember well. Had been a while since I last saw dad so relaxed and happy :) He missed having family trips too. So glad to see all so happy and enjoying themselves. My silly cute brothers had their good time in the pool and Yummy Yummy food in Penang. Mom was happy to be home and seeing her relatives. My sis had good time snacking. Tsk tsk makan aje! Haha i know she'll beat me after seeing this ;p And I ate a lot too :/ Started my workout routine today. Low stamina, tsk..even elder ladies are stronger :/ </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);font-family:trebuchet ms;" >I hope next year's CNY will be as fun or fun-er ;) But somehow the ang pows seem to get lesser and lesser each year. Supposed to be more this year with those from my newly-wed cousin and his wifey and Mom's relatives.? Strange. Maybe these amount appear smaller to me as I grow older.? </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Glad tomorrow's a PH. I've got some work to do at home though. And lotsa snacks to clear at home..Oh Oh! :O</span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1669206276864038922.post-5699313999668223862008-12-31T09:34:00.004+08:002008-12-31T13:45:15.127+08:00Adiós 2008!<span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">Goodbye 2008! I just feel like putting in some words here before the new year arrives. Got up early today as i was afraid to fall asleep again after the nightmare:( <br />I'm in Penang for a week already:) Yep, all the way here to spend some quality time with my special someone during this holiday. Having a good two weeks' break from work:) So 2008...had been quite a challenging year for me. One major thing that happened in this year was change. Change of environment, daily routine, goals as well as interest. Moving from a university's life to a working adult's was definately a big change for me. Like people said, out of your comfort zone. Precisely how I felt! I had been in schooling life for mm..let's calculate. 3-4 years in kindergarten(i did 1 year extra because i entered early together with my cousin bro who's a year elder) + 6 years in primary school + 5 years in secondary school + 1.5 years in Form 6 + 3 years in uni = 18.5-20 years! :O Everything was well taken care of by my ever so dedicated parents. To them, kids' educations are the most important thing and they always will ensure we get those no matter how tough they'd have to work. They have to bear the cost for four little monsters! But I'm so glad now that only two left. Myself has finished and Sis is finishing soon, in 2010 but they don't need to worry so much for her as she's taking study loan so it's fine. Back in those times I didn't need to worry much about so many things. I've got everything. School uniforms, stationaries, tuitions, school bus arranged and pocket money. All i had to worry was getting EXCELLENT grades in exams, not just good. They have never pressured me though. It was more like a silent pressure. I knew those were what they wanted and I did do well in almost all my major exams and they were very happy indeed. Only I was a little disappointed in my uni's grade. They aren't bad but just not good enough or so I thought. Anyway they aren't important anymore now. So yeah, that's the end of my student's life and moving towards a more realistic world. Here's the beginning of the life challenges. Everything was unpredictable and not pre-arranged like used to. Parents won't find for me my interest job, won't pay me allowance anymore(though i know they would give if I really ask with a thick face), won't buy me `uniforms' and won't arrange transportations. I have to do these all by own but of course they are always there whenever I need something. I know this is the time when I really have to be independant. Yeah,like they said-Grow up! I feel happy that I'm able to contribute at least some money to them and also buying things/food for my siblings. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">The biggest challenge for me this year was to find my interest job. What i'm doing now has nothing to do with my degree - everyones says it's common such. A lot of thinkings was done and it took quite a while to figure somethings. No, I haven't figure out what I really want to do, yet. Yes, until now, honestly. I only have found out what I don't. I didn't want to be in the Biochem lab. Neither the clinical nor the research lab. So at least one thing was clear. Elimination is also one good way to find answers. Despite that, i certainly think that the knowledge will not go to waste. It is good to know for our body, our health and living a healthy lifestyle so i'm not upset about that. What's upsetting me,sometimes, is not able to know my true interest. Sooner or later,I'll probably will but I feel lost at times. Looking at peers who already pursuing their interest job makes me jealous sometimes. I feel like I'm way behind. Nevertheless, I am glad to be in this place I am now. I'd say this is a right place for me to learn and gain as much possible at my position now, granted with a bunch of truly amazing people who are so supportive and 'true'. I am thankful being here:) although I can't say what I'm doing now is what I really want. I've chosen not to think so much for now for at least I really am enjoying this. Meanwhile I'll make the best out of this opportunity and I'm pretty sure the day that I'll finally solve the big question will come. I have learnt to be more positive than i was before and it really helps to build the self-esteem that I need. But to come to this decision of being here has put me through quite some challenges - finding interest, job hunting stress, interview stages, huge debate sessions with parents which are really really upsetting, travelling to interview sites, money issues (stopped getting allowance after uni) and bla bla bla. At times like this, I was grateful to have these few awesome people to support me endlessly. I knew I could always count on them and I truly appreciate all of them. My parents, my siblings and my sweetheart. Sometimes I may not show the feelings on my face but deep down my heart stays my love for them. Here I meant my parents. Somehow our relationships are a little formal and non-expressive and this was the way we are brought up so we understood without saying. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">Another thing to add on to my 2008 happenings' list is my graduation! Yes, after 18.5-20 years of school I have finally graduated! How excited! As excited as I could be, there also lie the fear to face the real world. Some said it is ruthless; it is the survival for the fittest, a metaphor to describe that only the fittest person will prevail in the competitive society. Similar to the Darwinism theory of natural selection (goodness of Bio knowledge-helps to enhance your blog;p). 070808 was my historical day in life. I was glad to have people whom I loved witnessed the joyful moment and especially my parents who i think might have heaved a sigh of relief while watching me walking off the stage with the scroll(fake scroll) and also might be thinking in their heads, 'Oh finally. One down'. haha! I really appreciate those who came and they have all made my day:) Not forgetting my awesome 080808 birthday celebration. Such an auspicious year for me. Oh well,that was not all! Of course I wouldn't miss out this one! Yet another amazing thing happened this year which has made my 2008 such a grrrreaaat one. The person I was casually hooked up with has now become that someone special:) and it's been really wonderful. He puts smiles on my face everyday. Almost everyday! Even when we are apart from each other (geographical barrier), he still does! I can't describe how much I appreciate his presence and the things he has done. He is simply amazing. I really feel like I'm the luckiest girl present. Thank you love:)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">Overall, 2008 has been a <span style="font-weight: bold;">WONDERFUL</span> year. Now, I wish for another fantastic year ahead although i can't yet to foresee what's coming and what's not. If i'm asked for my New Year resolutions? Hrmmm...ok..if i have to have one or some...i'll say learn to be frugal - spend what is neccesary (quite a challenge), maximise the learning opportunities that I can get in my work, and keep as fit as possible. Perhaps I should start attending belly dancing classes again. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">Oo can't wait for the ice-cream later, yum yum BR:D I'm running down for brunch first.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">Cheers! Happy Happy New Year!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102); font-family: georgia;">And Again, good bye sweet 2008! :D</span>Li_he@rthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550342637194803645noreply@blogger.com2